the atheists are the group to whom young Christians turn to. At least in environment.
So, I'm interested in learning how they think and feel.
You're not wrong, I suppose. Back when I became annoyed at what I was being taught in terms of religion, I just concluded it was all bollocks and turned to atheists. The reality was I didn't really give any of it any proper study or thought. Most notably, I didn't understand how to properly approach mythology and interpret literature. Instead of grasping that our Pagan ancestors depicted the gods in anthropomorphic ways as a way of telling the story, I took it literally instead of comprehending that the sun is the god. Not the idol (the chariot) used to represent the sun, the actual sun. The actual sun is the most widely deified aspect of reality in human history. Once I understood that, the notion that there's no evidence for gods - and atheism in general - became untenable to me. The sun is literally studied by the sciences and was/is recognized as a god by many, many cultures.