ARGH! I Can't Take It Anymore!

[Circle_One]

Hahaha, I wouldn't have the time to think up songs. My iPod already has over 1000 anyway. What I need to do is get a tattoo. That always calms me.

 

[whereismynotecard]

Okie dokie. Get one of Baggins. You won't regret it.

 

[Circle_One]

Okie dokie. Get one of Baggins. You won't regret it.

I already have three dogs and 5 cats, which, by the way, I didn't even factor into my schedule, haha. I don't have anymore room for a Baggins

 

[whereismynotecard]

Are you having a better day today?

 

[Reverend Rick]

Are you having a better day today?

Nice Avatar Hannah

 

[whereismynotecard]

Thank you.

 

[Caladan]

WoW, you're a super-hero Blayze. school, work AND a kid to take care of, not to mention take care of the old man. :bow:
as if school combined with work is not enough time consuming, I think your schedule is a cosmic challenge.
I'm not sure how you take your studies, but perhaps you can strech them a bit longer, and make your daily schedule more bearable.
trust me, I think you should be welcomed home at night with a nice cup of hot coffee and a foot massage.

 

[Mr Cheese]

I think I'm losing my grip on reality and sanity. I've always been that person who can do it all. Who can do a million things at once and accomplish anything I set out to do, but I can't handle my life anymore.

On any given day, my schedule goes something like this:

6:00am-Wake up
6:10am-Make Justyce's lunch
6:15am-Wake up Justyce and fight with him for 15 minutes.
6:30am-Wake up my father. Make both him and Justyce breakfast.
7:00-Get dressed, gather my stuff for school and work, get Justyce ready for school and catch the bus by 7:36am.
8:00am-11am-Work
11am-Leave work, catch the metro, head to school.
11:45am-1pm-First class
1pm-Leave class, Catch metro and go back to work.
1:30-2:30-Work
2:30-Leave work, catch metro, go back to school.
2:45-4pm-School
4pm-5pm-Go back to work
5pm-Leave work, catch metro, and then bus for home (in the morning there's a bus that brings me right to work. At night, there's not).
6pm-Get home, start supper.
6:30-7pm (depending on what I make for supper)-Finishing cooking, finally sit down for my first and only meal of the day.
7pm-7:20pm-Fight with Justyce about why we have to do his homework right now
7:20-9pm-Justyce's homework (and that's only if there's no special projects need to be done)
9pm-9:20pm-Fight with Justyce about why he needs to take a shower right now
9:20-10pm-Finally get Justyce into the shower, clean up from supper, and the mess he and my dad made during the day while I was gone.
10pm-10:30-Fight with Justyce about why he needs to go to bed at 10.
10:30-Give up and let him stay up until 11. Clean bathroom from his shower
11pm-Put Justyce to bed.
11:10-11:20pm-Shower, if I'm lucky.
11:30pm-Ask my dad to please turn down his TV, or put his earphones on so I can study.
11:35pm-Midnight-Argue with my dad about asking him to turn down the TV and explaining "why I have to study so damned much".
Midnight-Give up and go outside into the unheated, unfurnished garage and study on the cement floor.
Midnight-3am-Study
3am-6am-Sleep.

And then three hours later, I'm up and doing it all over again.

In between all of this, I'm dealing with boyfriends and breakups and arguments with my mom about Jay and with Jay about my mom. With my family ******** about how I never have enough time for anyone. My mom saying I spend too much time with everyone but Justyce (WHAT? WHAT F-ING TIME???), with Justyce whining and moaning, with my dad complaining and milking his illness, and telling me I'm a bad daughter for not having found the time to take his blood/glucose everyday, with friends who ***** I never see them anymore, and then go on to talk about themselves, never once asking how I'm coping, and school projects that are due in four days but I'm only told about them today, and with the rest of the world that won't get off my back!

Presently, I have a test tomorrow that I should be studying for right now, but I'm giving up. I can't do it anymore. I've got no support system, no one to talk to, no one to listen to me and no one to f-ing care. I feel like I'm coming apart at the seams.

I'm not the calm, unstressed person I make myself out to be all the time. It's not easy keeping this damn smiling face on 24/7 when it feels like I'm Atlas holding the whole world on my back. It's not easy being everything to everyone and having no one be anything for me. Sometimes I need to talk too. Sometimes I need to cry too. Sometimes I just need someone to listen and understand that I CAN'T DO EVERYTHING!

You forgot time to masturbate

 

[DallasApple]

Wow..I dont think I have ever had a scuedule quite that busy ..But I do remember feeling invisible back when the kids were younger and trying to take care of eveybody's needs..I remember at one point standing there screaming "Im a person TOOOOO!!!! " LOL!!!

(((HUGS)))) You need to be heard..and Justyce and your Daddy need to start helping out more.

Love

Dallas