7. (Drum roll!) Have you been fortunate enough yet to have a glimpse of this "clear light"?
Oh I believe I have "glimpsed" it, as I've encountered some of the most mind-blowing experiences in a few meditation sessions. If I'm correct in my assumption of the experience being a glimpse of the dharmakaya, it was.........well............I can't honestly describe it. But I'll try:
Overwhelming love, from everywhere toward everywhere. Ultimate joy, bliss, happiness, and that I am a part of it. I
am it, and it is by far not excluded to me nor those like me. I was so moved upon experiencing it that I found myself with tears streaming down my cheeks. I'm tearing up now remembering it.
These were experiences I had when I was also so sick that I was wasting away a couple years ago. Three different doctors could not give me any prognosis on my condition, where I lost 15 pounds in a week. I was rushed to the emergency room, and I truly believed I was dying of - what, I don't know.
Even though my body was being tortured by some unknown "thing", my mind was experiencing some of most grateful, loving, peaceful, and blissful moments I'd ever had. I'm usually reluctant to share this experience because I'm not sure how others might take it, and it's a VERY personal one at that, too. I was terrified one moment, and then overwhelmed with compassion and loving kindness the next.
But it was in my meditations where I experienced some of the most profound
stuff, I guess. And in those moments, where I believed myself to be dying, I believe I caught a mere *glimpse* of the Clear Light.
When I somehow got better (strangely it was after I'd checked on my last will and testament, and called my husband to come home since I was in the hospital), I began study of the Tibetan Book of the Dead. Then the more I studied the sutras and the Vajrayana commentary, the more it confirmed everything I'd experienced.
Funny - I feel at my most vulnerable right now. Sharing this story makes me feel.........I don't know...........
connected. I ask all who's reading this to please be patient since it's difficult to put everything I'd seen, heard, tasted, felt, etc. into words.
Well, I hope it at least answers the question.
Peace,
Mystic