I'm not an Atheist and I'm only an atheist as a consequence. I'm an Agnostic.
That's fine. What I said is still true for agnostics as well. "I'm not sure I believe in God", likewise has a theological image of God it is evaluating. You can't be "undecided" about something you have no idea of how it is understood to be. There's nothing to be said or considered about things you have no awareness of at all. For both the atheist and the agnostic, there is a theological understanding of God they are evaluating to differing points of views. And my point is, that is the traditional theistic view as held by traditionalist and mythic-literal Christians, not other theological views outside of those.
I have no idea how you define god or if you even could when questioned.
Sure, I could talk about it if questioned. But I am careful to say I don't define God. It's merely an expression of my perceptions of God as I relate personally to it. It's not anything that runs against science or rationality.
What I know is that that definition won't be shared with many.
How do you know that? I would actually say my views are shared by a great many others. But when you don't start with rigid theological definitions, it makes it a little more compatible with the differing ways people express their perceptions. Atheism, and agnosticism in the West particularly, are starting with a fairly rigid theological definition. It's conclusions about that definition of God, are largely something I conclude myself.
Or in other words, you don't know what a god is as you can't explain it to others so that they agree.
Oh, the hell with that.
That's nonsense. One can know an experience is real, and not be able to explain it very well. The very nature of spiritual experiences are non-verbal to begin with. They are not conceptualizations. They are experiences. Taking any experience and adequately being able to explain them, is a challenge for any language. That's why people invent new words, to attempt better ways to express the inexpressible
Language is an afterthought, not the cornerstone of experience.
"If you can't show it, you don't know it." - AronRa.
Know it how? Show it how? With an intellectual comprehension? There is a difference between apprehension and comprehension. One does understand a thing by experiencing it, without necessarily being able to explain or reason it fully. This will help you see the difference:
Apprehension vs. Comprehension - The Difference Between
In the following sentence “He had apprehension about the meaning of the statement” the word apprehension means that he did have the ability to understand what a statement meant. If you use the word comprehension in the same sentence “He had comprehension of the meaning of the statement” it means that he did understand what the statement meant. In the sentence using apprehension, it did not say that he fully understood the meaning, just that he had the ability to comprehend it. In this case apprehension refers to the process of understanding or comprehension. The word “understanding” in itself is complex and refers to what a person knows already and the way a person’s mind acts in the process of comprehending new material.
There are two different mental processes at work in apprehension and comprehension. In apprehension, a person has the ability to understand something, but this ability is dependent on something concrete. For example, if you go outside in the winter without a coat, you will get cold. Therefore you learn not to go out in the cold without first putting on a coat.
You do not need prior experience in order to comprehend something, so comprehension involves a different process. Comprehension refers to understanding through the way in which you interpret concepts and symbols at the present time. It is the complete process of understanding something in which you perceive, interpret and process the knowledge. Students in school demonstrate comprehension by reading a paragraph and answering questions about it.
According to the definition of comprehension from a linguist point of view, it means understanding and making a decision. A linguist defines apprehension as understanding and hesitating. Thus, in comprehension you understand and decide, but in apprehension, you understand and then stop to think about what you should do. Comprehension leads to discussion, but apprehension leads to imagination.
There is no doubt connected with comprehension, but there is with apprehension.
As shown, one can in fact understand, or "know" something, without comprehending it. With apprehension, one can know the reality of a thing, while leaving the door open in how we think about it conceptually, or express it linguistically. In your case, theologically you comprehend what is believed about God, but your understanding is limited to those concepts you have been exposed to. It does not go beyond that into apprehension, where you have an experience of something, and know about it through that experience. Both know about God, in different ways, through different processes.
Look around you. There are tens of thousands of different religions, denominations, sects - and each one believes to have the truth about the nature of god. Has any one of those ever convinced an other group of their truth? Do they even try?
Which one of those tens of thousands of different views reflects your understanding of God you find ill-supported? You have to have one you're looking at in order to say anything about it at all.
Do you believe in lskdjikhv? Well, I don't know what a lskdjikhv is therefore I can't say that I believe in lskdjikhv.
Oh, and I may not know what a lskdjikhv is but it has something to do with religion, so it is a theological question. /s
I can't hold any position on something that has no definition. God is not something with no meaning like lskdjkhv. If you told me that jumble of letters meant certain things, then I'd have something to say about it. Since you identify as either atheist or agnostic, you have a definition in your mind about those three letters and what they mean. GOD has specific meaning to you, and Atheist, or Agnostic, is a direct response to a directly defined view of what the word God means. Therefore, it is theological.
The "meaning" is an illusion when it has different meaning for different people.
You are using "meaning" in the sense of value. I am not. I am using it in terms of a definition of a word, what is it meaning when spoken about in language. Not it's value to the believer. The word God has meaning, whether or not you find value in it as a concept or not. Words have meanings, otherwise, they would not be words, like your jumbled letter example above, which in fact has no linguist meaning at all. God, has linguistic meaning.
Exactly my lskdjikhv example from above. I can't have believe in something I don't know what it is.
But God has a linguist meaning. Your jumble of letters has none. It's not in any dictionary. God is, and you most definitely have a comprehension of it's meaning in language.
Start asking questions and you see that there is no consensus, only illusion of consensus.
But there is a consensus. Obviously there is, otherwise there would be no communication and no meaning to the word. You do not have to have 100% agreement in order for it to be considered a consensus. The definition of consensus, is "A general agreement", not 100% agreement. It is a fact that there are general agreements on the use of the word God, otherwise, no one would have any idea of what that word means. And you clearly do, since you say you don't believe God is real, as it is understood by others. You are starting with that consensus view yourself. And that is my point.
We have a wide consensus of most things we see. We can agree on what a dog is and so can 99.99999% of all people. It gets a bit fuzzy with concepts.
Of course things get more fuzzy when you move away from naming concrete objects, like tree, or rock, or car, and get into abstractions, like love, value, truth, meaning, happiness, etc. These are all very real things, but they are vastly more fluid in how they can be viewed, understood, and talked about then talking about a dog pissing on a tree, near a rock, behind the car. All those are really easy, and not too many would have a problem getting the meaning of that image.
But life cannot be reduced down to such simple things. That's why we have so many words, beyond simple words to replace pointing and grunting at objects we see. You really only need a few hundred words to describe a reality that is no more complex than that. But we have tens of thousands of words we use, because we are dealing with real reality, that is a lot more than just rocks flying through space.
But the agreement that there are laws and what they mean is still over 90%.
Not necessarly that figure. You can have a consensus about a lot of differing things. It has to be a consensus, or "general agreement" of the group using that word however in order for it to have functional meaning to the group.. All language operates this way. All worldviews operate this way. That's how a group is held together through common symbols and signs. We use language to communicate and bring us together with each other.
So, again, you definitely know what God means, because you are taking one of these groups uses of it, taking that theological definition, evaluating it, and concluding it doesn't hold up to your critera for something of value to believe in. All of that is perfectly fine, but make no mistake, that is exactly what you are doing. There is no way of getting around this. There is no reason to try to get around this. No one is judging your decision.
There is no such consensus about god. Show me a god and over 90% will disagree.
The fact that there are groups of people who come together around the same understandings, shows consensus right there. It is the "general agreement" of that group in what that word means. There can be other general agreements about what that word means by other groups. There is no criteria that says, "Unless 6,300,000,000 people (or 90% of the worlds population) all agree that "God" means the supernatural, magical sky-person deity of traditional theism in the West, then the word has no meaning". That's disingenuous, and false.