To worship God just means to love God
Not to me. The words love and worship have distinct meanings. One I do gladly, the other not.
My life has never been a picnic and it is not getting much better
Sorry to read that.
first you have to have faith
That path is off limits for me. I've already explained why I reject faith as a path to truth. Any method that lets one believe a wrong idea as easily as a correct one is not a good method for deciding what is true about the world. If faith is the only path to theism, then I will never be a theist. I am a died in the wool rational skeptic. I need a substantial reason to believe anything.
It is not as if God expects blind faith, God provides evidence of His existence through Messengers
I don't consider any words written by men to be evidence for a god. It is evidence of a god belief, not a god.
We are assured that if we are a true seeker and fulfilled certain conditions, we will be guided
I need more than such assurances. People are happy to make promises that cannot be verified and need not be kept. I've already gone down that true seeker path, and was disappointed.
God wants you to convince yourself by looking at the evidence He provides
The evidence is consistent with a godless universe. I believe that I've given you the restricted choice argument before. It argues that in a universe ruled by an omnipotent, omnisicient god, there might be a holy book so impressive that no man could have written it, or not, but in a godless universe, only the latter is possible. There are dozens of these, and in every case, what we see is what we would see in a godless universe.
The argument is similar to concluding that a coin is loaded if it flips to tails every time. With a fair coin, the result could have been heads or tails, but with the loaded coin, only tails comes up. After awhile, it is safe to assume that the coin is loaded even if there is a minute possibility that the coin is a fair coin. That's about where I am with the god issue. My world is best understood without needlessly injecting gods into it.
what do you think "a god" is?
I'm generally referring to a sentient, volitional agent capable of creating universes, but the word can also be used to refer to less, as with the Greek and Viking pantheons..
what are your general thoughts on paganism?
I know very little about it.
Proof Does exist for those who take the effort it takes to Discover it. Discovery and Truth isn't about Believing or Convincing.
Proof is that which convinces. For me, that is evidence that can only be reasonably interpreted in one way. The evidence offered for gods in venues like this is feelings, feelings I've also experienced, and have also formerly misinterpreted as something more than my own mind.
if one assumes that God does not exist because the answers are not served up on a silver platter, one is unlikely to Discover anything at all.
The agnostic atheist does not assume that gods don't exist. He simply requires sufficient evidence before believing that they do. I believe that there is a sun the sky, but not a god. Why? One reveals itself through the evidence of its heat and light, the other doesn't. It's really that simple.
That's a useful metaphor. Each cell is capable of being reached and communicated with by the collective, the organism. If I want to reach a sensory neuron such as the temperature receptors on my skin, I send it a message that it can receive - a neuronal stimulus. If I want to "speak" to a leukocyte, I do so with a foreign antigen, which it will engulf if it is a macrophage, or elucidate antigen-specific antibodies if it is a B-lymphocyte. The point is that we can communicate with these cells according to the limits of our abilities to reach them. You and I are capable of much more sophisticated reactions. We can understand and use language, for example. Yet no god is speaking to me, and I'm pretty sure I know why. If such a god exists, it has no more interest in you or me than we have in the 13-millionth oldest leukocyte in our immune systems at this instant. This idea of a concerned god existing that hasn't or can't reach us is ludicrous.
This in no way equates to "speaking to a cell". And the point is that the cell cannot grasp the whole body within which it resides, and from which it gains it's nature, sustenance and purpose. It is not within the cell's capacity. Just as it is not within a human's capacity to grasp the ultimate source of our nature, sustenance, and purpose. Nothing is being "hidden" from us. We are simply not equipped to grasp the whole truth.
But I'm not looking to understand what I am not equipped to understand. My point was that the component - cells in this this case comprising a multicellular organism - can be reached to the limit of its ability to interpret and respond to stimuli. For a leukocyte, that is the ability to recognize a foreign antigen and generate a defense against it. Human beings have much more ability, but nobody is reaching out even to the level we are equipped to experience and understand. I don't accept the notion that human beings could not directly experience a god if there was one to experience.
I'm not looking for a god's-eye view of gods, just a human being's view. Those that tell me that I'm getting nothing because the whole is too great to grasp in its entirety aren't convincing. Then, this view will be called treating God like a short-order cook or wanting things served on a silver platter, as if it is expecting too much to be given what can be understood.