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Violet.
I can't help but feel this way. I suppose for others that believe in the bible they might feel differently, but I find inside the bible instructions that teach this is suppose to happen.
I think for others they "make" the bible augment their life, and it is just another aspect to their life, so long as it does not destroy their life.
We read often times in the New Testament that we are to not Love this world, and those that do are enemies of God. We are told the world has been given over to Satan, and that choosing the ways of the world is an act of defiance to God.
Our leader Jesus had no problem leaving this place, nor did Paul shy away from talking about leaving early.
So, I find that giving myself wholly to the bible and sacrificing my own life for a life that presents Jesus to people, and in no way am I concerned for myself, I am left with no life at all. Yet, I am told by giving up my life like this, I will have treasure in heaven.
It is no wonder why so many people hate or loathe the bible or many religious texts, if they cause this type of reaction. Yet, for others it is the individual people and not the texts, that get the brunt of disdain.
I guess for me it is all the way or nothing, I am either balls to the wall, or forget it. I mean whats the point if it is not real? I don't really give a crap about a book that isn't real. Don't read much fiction, never have. I enjoy a good non-fiction any day.
Any questions, just shoot. Or as some might say, just shoot
IWE,
I'm sorry for my short little post before.
I've been so sleep deprived I'm having a hard time expressing myself these days it seems.
Or unable even to find the time to try.
But I will try right now.
I'm not gunna try and convince you of anything in this post...
why should I?
But I will share a little, because I really do relate to your post
on account of my own past.
I myself have always had a "balls to the wall, or forget it" attitude as well.
As a result, after almost 10 years in the roman catholic church,
I left my whole life behind. Church, friends, and even a year or two later,
my longstanding career as a church accompanist (pianist).
I was an "out of church" christian for maybe ... 2 and a half years after that.
Almost totally isolated and alone... always searching on the net for others
who "understood" jesus' teachings as I then did.
(and actually still do now).
I had pretty much ditched everything but jesus' teachings direct.
The Kingdom of gOd teachings... which I love to this day...
The Parables... The "Father may they be One as you and I are One" prayer...
and I totally related then (as I even do now) to the "in the world but not of it" teaching.
(though not exactly the same way now as I did then.)
I really hate the monetary system for starters.
In fact I'm so completely not crazy about the way we as a people/society/world system... whatever...
handle SO MANY things...
that I really cannot say I am (a part) "of" it.
Yet I certainly do find mySelf IN it. And knee deep too!
But the difference is now ... I'm really ... enjoying my personal BEcoming...
IN this world, the way it is, wherever I find mySelf.
I also enjoy people so much more now that I do not view them as "sinful beings in need of salvation". ick.
What an awful way to view people.
The world "system" is a challange yes.
People's closed thinking regarding the way's in which
we "should" and "shouldn't" be living out our lives... is a challange, yes.
Figuring out how to sucessfully, and "stylishly" "become" mySelf
in the midst of the sureal societal constructs in which I find myself,
is all part of the game though.
How to be honestly me, without scaring others away,
or isolating myself or my kids.
Remaining hidden mostly...
breathing in the "Kingdom" air that runs through me
and surrounds me...
living out my birthright as Heiress of Source,
(SourceHeiress... Sourceress)...
redefining the world and it's "word" and even my own Self
to reflect my own deeper experience of life.
So many christians told me I was NOT a christian,
as a result of the popular interpretations I threw out,
and all the books of the bible I chose to no longer bother/trouble myself with,
I finally said... Ok, you win. I'm not a christian.
But I still love the Kingdom teachings attributed to the character of Y'shua.
I find them STILL to be nothing but true.
Still they speak to me.
The Kingdom of gOd is NOW.
The Kingdom of gOd is WITHIN.
It branches up and out like a tree...
It rises up like yeast...
It comes without (outside) perception...
The Kingdom of gOd is in the Midst of You.
I know this is true from my own personal experience.
(Though I express these things now, in different "terms")
After all, the experience of "gOd" trumps
bible, religion, church, tradition, preacher, or doctrine, popular interpretation/belief
or really ANYTHING. Anything at all.
At this point in my life,
a rainbow is FAR more likely to speak to me of transcendent things,
than a bible.
I have felt no need to open up a bible in maybe 3 years now.
I feel like I got all the good stuff out of it I needed already.
The rest of it was ruining my life as well.
I am SO much happier now.
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