AldaOshin
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[FONT="]I'm a freshman in college, and my first semester is over and done with. I had a very successful first semester - made the Dean's List, have a number of very comfortable and reliable social circles and am still going strong with my boyfriend of two years.
The one aspect of my life that deteriorated considerably is religion. I have had moments of religious epiphanies growing up, but these religious enlightenments were short-lived and I would eventually go back to being the uncaring young woman who simply wore the Catholic label without committing to any of the Catholic practices.
I have never felt this distant from God. I haven't been to church in a good, long while and I don't even pray anymore (mostly because I feel like I've lost all rights to ask God for help or to even speak to Him because I've become such a terrible Catholic). I suppose that I distance myself because of some sins that I've committed in the past, which include, but are not limited to: pre-marital sex, lying, cheating, and Lord knows how many broken commandments.
I just don't know how to bring God back into my life. I've often tried to start by just .. praying, but as soon as I start the guilt from past sins kicks in and I feel as though I've lost the right to speak to Him. Going to church wouldn't help much either, because I feel incomplete without receiving the Eucharist. I'd like to start off the New Year knowing that God is set securely in my life.
Advice?
:help:
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The one aspect of my life that deteriorated considerably is religion. I have had moments of religious epiphanies growing up, but these religious enlightenments were short-lived and I would eventually go back to being the uncaring young woman who simply wore the Catholic label without committing to any of the Catholic practices.
I have never felt this distant from God. I haven't been to church in a good, long while and I don't even pray anymore (mostly because I feel like I've lost all rights to ask God for help or to even speak to Him because I've become such a terrible Catholic). I suppose that I distance myself because of some sins that I've committed in the past, which include, but are not limited to: pre-marital sex, lying, cheating, and Lord knows how many broken commandments.
I just don't know how to bring God back into my life. I've often tried to start by just .. praying, but as soon as I start the guilt from past sins kicks in and I feel as though I've lost the right to speak to Him. Going to church wouldn't help much either, because I feel incomplete without receiving the Eucharist. I'd like to start off the New Year knowing that God is set securely in my life.
Advice?
:help:
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