hay, ladyfriend.
a number one, i don't believe in god, but i choose not to call myself an "athiest", because i don't want the negative connotation that often comes with the word.
secondly, i'm not sure if you should be getting advice about this heavy of a subject on an online forum. people who don't know you, or have any interest in you, never really seem to say the right things. not that the things said in this here forum should be dismissed, they just might not hit you in the right spot.
on the third hand, don't let the negative responses in this post bring you down or affect you. no one here should assume anything other than what you posted. all we know is that you believe in god, but somewhere along the way, you feel as if you've lost him and need to know how to reach him again. and all we can do is try to help. and if we don't want to help do that specific thing, then we should not comment. those comments belong in a forum of someone who is questioning their faith.
fourth off, i personally think the way you can find god again is by seeking out a parish by your college. start by going to mass at least once a week, so that you can see if you like the parish. and if you do, try to seek a meeting with a priest there and see if he can help. at my school, we have a campus ministry, and they have these groups where you talk about your faith and apparently it really helps them. maybe ask the priest about one of those or a bible study class or something. finding other people who have experienced the same thing you are is what can really help.
fifth of all, remember that as long as you believe in god, he is always in your life! you just aren't seeing him clearly. don't worry, though, you can get corrective lenses.
your soulmate,
orange murdoch.