Against my better judgement, I will reverse what I said in my last post to you and respond.
First of all, this thread is not about me, so why have you in your last two posts made it about me instead of actually dealing with the things I wrote? But since you seem confused about my approach, I'll deal with your questions.
I don't "go through the motions of worship" because I don't worship. Since I already mentioned that in a previous post, the impression I get is that you are probably intent on demeaning me by getting a "dig" in as being some sort of hypocrite.
Sorry again metis...I am not trying to pry or to take "digs" at you...I am just interested in what makes people do what they do and believe what they believe. Your take on life and worship is rather unique, so I am just interested. Human behavior sometimes needs to be understood at a deeper level to help others know where you are coming from. I have no ulterior motives apart from curiosity, so I am sorry again if you misread my intentions. I am just trying to understand you so that if I meet others who are like minded I will have some insight...so my prodding is more about me than it is about you.
And I already explained why I attend, and I just recently mentioned to my wife that even if she were to pass away before me, I would probably still go to mass periodically. Without any explanation, she understood where I was coming from with that and why, but obviously you don't know me well enough to know why.
Having lost my own life partner of 45 years, almost 2 years ago, I think I do.
My approach to God has already been mentioned to you as I told you that you can read it in my signature statement. My "big picture" is more along the line of a scientific approach. If God made all, then all must in some way be a reflection of God, as Einstein also felt.
I have no faith in prayer per se since I don't think God, however perceived or not perceived, is going to change any world events because of me, plus there's no research that clearly indicates that prayer works. The exception is that if people know others are praying for them, there actually is some evidence to indicate that this can help-- "mind over matter" probably, but who knows for sure.
Prayer to me is an incredible privilege. I cannot get to see the ruler of my own nation for a chat about anything, but I can talk directly to the ruler of the universe without an appointment 24/7.....to unburden myself of my anxieties and to ask for strength and wisdom to cope with the problems that life always throws at us.
Most people see prayer as only asking for things....I see it more as a way to thank God for the blessings I still receive every day in spite of all the drama.
Finally, if having some politically-correct belief about Jesus is what supposedly "saves" one so as they can the go to heaven, I find that to be just so bizarre. Just because one says "I believe..." means nothing if one doesn't act on their belief in a moral manner of compassion and justice/fairness to all, imo. IOW, it's just "cymbals clashing". And I would much rather associate with a moral atheist than an immoral Christian (or Jew, or Buddhist, or...).
I completely agree. I don't think God wants performance over a sincere desire to want to know him personally. Since God hates hypocrisy, the relationship is the most important thing, not just going through the motions as some kind of 'spiritual insurance', (which I am sure is what some people do) but a heartfelt desire to know God and to please him in everything we do. A grateful heart is hard to find these days.
My apologies again....I will not trouble you further.