Thanks for that question!
As you may not be aware,most conservative evangelical pastors estimate that 90-95% of their congregation are not truly converted,in the Biblical sense of the word. This is,of course, a fulfilment of Christ's teaching in Matthew 13,where a sower went forth to sow the seed and some fell on the road,and didn't grow:in fact, the birds came and ate the seed.Some fell on rocks,with little soil,and they sprang up quickly,looking good,but when the sun came out, they withered,because they had no real root. More seed fell amongst thorns,and when the thorns and the seed grew together, the thorns choked the seed and killed it.But some seed (the minority,I'm afraid) fell on good ground,and grew up into productive plants,yielding a good harvest. Further in chapter 13 Christ explains this parable:He says that the Seed is the Gospel,and the types of ground are the human heart. Some recieve the seed,and nothing happens. Some receive the seed,and grow quick,looking very encouraging FOR A WHILE, before they die out because of lack of good soil. And some grow amongst thorns,which Christ says is like the cares of this world,that choke out the Gospel,and nothing grows.But some soil has been plowed and is ready for seed.It gladly receives the Seed,and grows a good,productive crop.
Unfortunatly, this parable,amongst others in Matthew 13,says that only a percentage of those that even will take any notice of the Gospel will "get saved", or become converts in a true sense.
So,what happened to plow the ground,and ready it for the introduction of the seed?
a young rich man approached Christ in Mark chapter ten,and asked what he must do to earn eternal life. Jesus said that he must be right with God.The young man then informed Jesus that he had kept the Ten Commandments and other Levitical Laws from childhood! And yet, he KNEW things were not right between him and his God. So the Bible says,Jesus looked on him with love,and said,"One thing thou lackest...Sell all that thou hast,and take up the cross,and follow me." The young man went away sad,not only because he wanted to keep his "stuff", but because he would have to give up his lifestyle and follow Jesus.
Friend,that is the KEY.That is what "plows up the field" ready for the seed. Repentence.
Jesus says to YOU,"One thing thou lackest..." You have done the best,tried the hardest,sacrificed, but one thing thou lackest. Jesus does NOT want you to sell your "stuff". Oh,no. He wants more than that.He wants you to "sell out" to Him, making Him Lord of your life, turning your back on sin and dedicating yourself,with God's help, to living for Him. He wants it all,and for you to deny your plans,your self,and your desires,and to take up the cross,and follow Him.
I have been where you likely are.I thought everything was okay.But "One thing I lackest". All the things that Jesus and the Apostles talked about in the New Testament are now true in my life,by the Grace of God.
And this is open to those that will repent.
The Black Adder
Isaiah 32:17