Well that's is your first problem right there. If you accepted Christendom's version of events, no wonder nothing made sense. Pity you threw the baby out with the bathwater.
I understand both the Old Testament and New Testament in the last 18 years better than I did as from 15 to 34, when I didn’t question the New Testament and Christian interpretations of the Old Testament.
I understand that all the supposed OT “prophecies” of being fulfilled by Jesus from like that from gospel of Matthew, are false fulfilments.
For instance, when I read the bible as a teenager (I was15, when I read it), like Jesus’ birth, I had believed in the author’s claim that Jesus did fulfil Isaiah’s prophecy, as the author stated in Matthew 1:22-23:
“Matthew 1:22-23” said:
22 All this took place to fulfill what had been spoken by the Lord through the prophet:
23 “Look, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son,
and they shall name him Emmanuel,”
which means, “God is with us.”
And church teachings alway agree with this gospel’s false fulfilment, including JW.
And I had believed in author’s claim, without question for nearly 20 years, without double-checking Isaiah’s original sign (Isaiah 7:14-17).
Matthew 1:22-23 was the first passage that I disagree with, when I re-read the whole chapters in 2000 (I was 34 then), Matthew 1 and cross-checking it with Isaiah 7 (not just 1 verse, but the complete chapter).
Back then, as a teenager, I apparently didn’t do much cross-checking with the bible, so I took the gospel author of Matthew at its face value.
Re-reading Matthew 1 together with Isaiah 7, in 2000, was really my first clue to as why Bible and the authors to the gospels shouldn’t be.
Matthew’s author only quoted a single verse from Isaiah (7:14), but the complete sign of Isaiah is 7:14-25, hence to the very last verse...BUT the core sign relating to the child is Isaiah 7:14-17, read as follow:
“Isaiah 7:14-17” said:
14 Therefore the Lord himself will give you a sign. Look, the young woman is with child and shall bear a son, and shall name him Immanuel. 15 He shall eat curds and honey by the time he knows how to refuse the evil and choose the good. 16 For before the child knows how to refuse the evil and choose the good, the land before whose two kings you are in dread will be deserted. 17 The Lord will bring on you and on your people and on your ancestral house such days as have not come since the day that Ephraim departed from Judah—the king of Assyria.”
Matthew’s sign is missing 3 crucial verses from Isaiah, relating to Immanuel.
By reading all 4 verses - Isaiah 7:14-17, I now know that the author of Matthew was wrong regarding the sign:
- That Isaiah’s sign (7:14-17) had nothing to do with the messiah.
- That the woman (Isaiah 7:14 & Matthew 1:23) has nothing to do with Mary.
- That the sign has to do with virgin birth is a false interpretation.
- That Immanuel isn’t Jesus.
- That Jesus didn’t fulfil the sign as stated Isaiah 7:14-17, because Jesus isn’t that child.
Isaiah 8:1-4 verified that the child wasn’t Jesus, because the sign of Immanuel had to with the war between Judah and the Israel-Aram alliance:
“Isaiah 8:1-4” said:
8 Then the Lord said to me, Take a large tablet and write on it in common characters, “Belonging to Maher-shalal-hash-baz,” 2 and have it attested for me by reliable witnesses, the priest Uriah and Zechariah son of Jeberechiah. 3 And I went to the prophetess, and she conceived and bore a son. Then the Lord said to me, Name him Maher-shalal-hash-baz; 4 for before the child knows how to call “My father” or “My mother,” the wealth of Damascus and the spoil of Samaria will be carried away by the king of Assyria.
And Immanuel reappeared in 8:5-10, relating to the war, and to Assyria.
“Isaiah 8:5-10“ said:
5 The Lord spoke to me again: 6 Because this people has refused the waters of Shiloah that flow gently, and melt in fear before Rezin and the son of Remaliah; 7 therefore, the Lord is bringing up against it the mighty flood waters of the River, the king of Assyria and all his glory; it will rise above all its channels and overflow all its banks; 8 it will sweep on into Judah as a flood, and, pouring over, it will reach up to the neck; and its outspread wings will fill the breadth of your land, O Immanuel.
9 Band together, you peoples, and be dismayed;
listen, all you far countries;
gird yourselves and be dismayed;
gird yourselves and be dismayed!
10 Take counsel together, but it shall be brought to naught;
speak a word, but it will not stand,
for God is with us.
The gospel of Matthew made me re-examine and rethink both the Old Testament New Testament, including Genesis Creation and Flood, and look at them without the Christian baggage.
Matthew 1 & 2 misuses of OT prophecies (eg massacre of Bethlehem, return from Exile in Egypt) were my first step towards agnosticism, so it had nothing to do with evolution vs creation, or with atheism.
The New Testament and Christian teachings of messiah are their own worse enemy.