Dare to Diverge

[Wildstar]

Darkness

The path I walked before, calls. I feel drawn to it. As I approach, observing the fruit hanging on the tree, I remember how delicious it was. I also notice that it is as if I had not just buried a path, I buried a part of myself. Skills were connected to that part, it also seems. As I write, for example, my words flow like water. It is effortless and flowing. My mind is also sharper, not lost to the haze I confined myself to when I turned away. Seems a return to the left hand path is imminent.

 

[Wildstar]

Here we go again. Where does it all end up? I suppose honestly. the destination is not of so much importance as is the journey itself. As I am once again peering in at the mental eldritch landscape which I find myself, I notice two viable philosophies, easily on equal footing to one another.

Cosmic

The cosmic perspective, although varied is best defined as the view that the cosmos, a structured system, exists for each of us to express ourselves through the human experience. Whether or not we are part of a single whole, splitting off into septillions of fragments or not, only to grow and eventually return to the primary source is unknown. In the cosmic perspective, creation is good. The bodies we live in are good. If reincarnation, each life is a journey until we reach divine status. In quantum immortality, we migrate from self to self, until we collect into one self which again, is divine. No matter, the cosmic perspective holds that the creator was good and creation is good.

Anticosmic

The anticosmic perspective is less varied and holds that the material is a prison. I would venture to speculate that the realm of material could be the klippoth, the realm of shells. Within these shells is kept spirits. These spirits are never freed from those containers, since the great cycle is just that. Whether quantum immortality or reincarnation, this perspective holds that creation is bad. Simply put, the anticosmic perspective, leads one to seek after destruction, not of self but of all form, since spirit can express itself infinitely and is many forms and none. It is the structured system which is the prison, created by a tyrannical overlord.

Both perspectives as I said are on equal footing and I lean Anticosmic, since as I understand, the end of the cycle, exists another cycle. If the cosmic view was right, then I am at a loss as to why we would reach divinity, only to splinter off and do the whole thing again. As I have come to understand the cosmos, we already experience all possibilities through quantum immortality. To play the game again, isn't to play it differently. The game plays out the same, since it has already been played in every way it can possibly be played. There are no new avenues, no new things to explore. When the wheel resets, we just replay the same game, the same septillion ways.

 

[Wildstar]

Horror

So, let's talk about horror. Horror at its root is fear. To experience horror is to experience fear and the art of horror is to induce fear. How do you induce fear? You utilize concepts which humans naturally fear or, through society's conditioning, have learned to fear. What then does that say for those who love horror? Is it that they love the rush fear gives them, similar to how a masochist enjoys pain? What it says is that some, either are numb through exposure and so seek after horror as a means to fee fear in a secure environment. It may also indicate that some simply enjoy the experience of fear, in which case, they enjoy horror.

In my case, I no longer watch horror. I found it to be numbing and tended to seek after stronger forms, which created an obsession with the genre. Since I stopped, I now notice I am squeamish. I dislike gore as it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I no longer enjoy horror and have come to realize why. I no longer enjoy it because I am no longer exposing myself to it. I had a tolerance before, which I no longer do. Horror makes me think undesirable thoughts and makes me feel undesirable feelings. However, ignoring horror as I have, while pleasant, has only served to aid me in hiding from shadow. The feelings are part of me, connected to my subconscious. Likewise, the thoughts. The fear of exposing myself to horror, is fear of the shadow within me.

Horror is not scary at all, when you think about it. The death of mortal bondage is not something to fear, neither is violence. Gore is not something to fear, since blood, organs and skeleton exist within us; they are part of the machine which is the body. Monsters are also not scary, since they are human fabrications of twisted concepts. Ultimately, horror movies only work, due to the hypnosis film itself induces in people, bypassing safeguards and etching into the mind their content. Could I read a horror novel without concern? Yes, easily. Film makes it real.