I appreciate your comments. However it is still fresh and it is hard for me not to have the feeling of being robbed. Maybe as I mature I will see things in a different light. I'm unable to at the moment.Hema said:Please read my post to "mostly harmless". Mister T, your cousin/best friend shared alot of happiness with you. If that was his nature, he wouldn't like it that you are sad right now. Please, don't dwell on his death. Dwell on his life and all of the happy times that you had together. He would want you to be happy. He is in a happier place than you. He will be even happier if you are happy. Remember he is no longer suffering. He must be thinking "Dude, this place is so cool where I am now."