Jaya Nitaai!
Dear
@Terese ji, I saw your question this morning, but am only free now to answer (sorry).
I don't think there is anything wrong with your mood. Generally, in Bhakti, Lord Hari and His avatars are the main objects of Bhakti. The devotees and Lord Hari are both worshipped, but in very different moods. Because, you see in Bhakti, the ultimate aim is
krsnanushilam, or pleasing the sense of Krsna. The main purpose why we worship the devotees, is because it gives great pleasure to Krsna (whose devotees are more dear to Him then even His own life). But still, the worship of the devotees cannot even we done independent of Krsna. When we worship Laksmi Devi, we worship Her because She is the internal energy of Lord Narayana and very dear to Him. When we worship Hanuman, we always worship with the mood that he is the dear most servant of Ramachandra. In this mood, we can never leave Lord Hari out of the picture. Lord Baladeva is little unique, because He is a devotee, and God, so you can worship Him in both moods. Another esoteric secret, is that when you worship the Lord through His devotees: when you hear His pastimes through their lips, when you sing in Kirtan with them, when you worship together with them, then the nectar of Lord Hari's Bhakti increases. The evidence is given in Srimad Bhagavatam itself:
nigama-kalpa-taror galitaṁ phalaṁ
śuka-mukhād amṛta-drava-saṁyutam
pibata bhāgavataṁ rasam ālayaṁ
muhur aho rasikā bhuvi bhāvukāḥ
"O expert and thoughtful men, relish Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam, the mature fruit of the desire tree of Vedic literatures. It emanated from the lips of Śrī Śukadeva Gosvāmī. Therefore this fruit has become even more tasteful, although its nectarean juice was already relishable for all, including liberated souls"
The Bhagavatam is like a ripened fruit, and Sukadeva Goswami is like a bird (His name literally means parrot). When such birds bite into a ripened fruit, the taste of the fruit increases even more. In the same way, when Hari Katha is heard through the devotees, their own mood in injected into that katha, and that gives us more nectar. Lord Shiva is an incarnation of God Himself. But He is worshiped by those who want impersonal liberation of becoming one with Brahman. But when that same Lord Shiva is worshiped in relation with Krsna Bhakti, then He can give your the highest Love for Lord Hari. For example, Skanda Purana reads:
"SRI KRSNE VAISNAVANANTU PREMA BHAKTI VIVARDHATE
KRSNA BHAKTI RASA SARA VARSI RUDRA ANUKAMPAYA"
"Being a Vaishnava, if somebody fasts on Lord Siva's night (Siva Ratri day), by the mercy of him (Lord Siva) who is diving in the ocean of the mellow of
devotion to Krishna, one's devotion to Krishna increases rapidly."
In the initial stage, it is very very difficult to understand the glories of the devotees of the Lord, but as you progress in Bhakti, this understanding will come. There are three types of Vaishnavs generally, they are in order of advancement called
Kanishta Adhikari, Madhayama Adhikari and Uttama Adhikari. The Kanishta Adhikari (beginner) has great faith in the Lord's deity, the Madhyama Adhikari (intermediate) has great faith in scripture and the pastimes of the Lord, and the Uttama Adhikari (high class Vaishnav) has great faith in the devotees of the Lord. So you see, this is a very very high stage. But you will realize this slowly. Espcially when you associate with Vaishnavs. Even if you can't physically, you can associate with them through their works. Read the scriptures of the pure Sri Vaishnavs in your line. Watch the lectures and kirtans of pure Sri Vaishnavs.
You will understand that it is His devotees who connects us with Krsna. They are our support in Bhakti. My Gurudeva used to say, when you are in trouble, don't yell for Krsna, yell for His devotees! Because His devotees know our pain. Krsna is God and is very fair (keeping everyone in check, punishing demons) so He can't always empathize with us, but the devotees know our pain.
There is nothing wrong about this Tereseji. You have very deep attachment to Lord Hari, so the devotees will surely be pleased.
I'll share with you a few favourite bhajans about the glories of a Vaishnav:
ei-bāro karuṇā koro vaiṣṇava gosāi
patita-pāvana tomā bine keho nāi
Please this once be merciful upon me Oh Vaishnav Gosai (Gosai means one who has mastered the senses). There is no one like You who can deliver the fallen souls.
jāhāra nikaṭe gele pāpa dūre jāy
emona doyāla prabhu kebā kothā pāy
"By going close to You, one's sins run far way, where else can I find such a merciful Lord?"
gańgāra paraśa hoile paścate pāvan
darśane pavitra koro-ei tomāra guṇ
"By repeated bathing in the Ganga one is purified, but simply by seeing You, one is purified. That is Your qualities.
hari-sthāne aparādhe tāre hari-nām
tomā sthāne aparādhe nāhi paritrāṇ
"Offenses against Lord Hari are delivered by His Name. Offenses against You cannot be delivered against"
tomāra hṛdoye sadā govinda-viśrām
govinda kohena-mora vaiṣṇava parāṇ
"In You heart, Lord Govinda always rests. Govinda says "The Vaishnavs are my heart"
prati-janme kori āśā caraṇera dhūli
narottame koro doyā āpanāra boli'
"In every life I have a hope to be the dust of Your feet. Please be merciful on Narottama, and call him Your own"