Okay please don't start talking trash about me or my family, but I gotta say this: My real last name is Arabian...or something close to like Muslim? Would that then mean I am part Musilm; I have no idea. My family believes in Protestant/Roman Catholic Beliefs and we were all born into such beliefs. In my 2 decades of life or so, I have accumulated a very large amount of SIN and still persist to do so to this day.
I play violent video games. I watch Hard-Core-Gaping Anus Porn...don't ask. What I believe, or what I am forced to believe might not be right. I swear a lot. I am friends, best of friends with a Bisexual Man in a Homosexual Relationship and I think my friend's boyfriend is a very good person despite him being GAY... I'm not gay, don't worry. I write stories depicting Violent Acts, Rape, Sex, Swearing, Gayness etc. I also really like Batman, Spiderman, Ichigo Kurosaki, Goku, so that could be considered Idolatry. I don't go to Church any time during the week. I work weekends, both days.
What Good Things Have I done? I pray every night before I go to bed. I go to Chruch every Christmas with my family. We celebrate the holidays of our faith. I don't drink or get drunk. I have volunteered at a Woman's Center and I am not planning to get any benefits from it. I have bought socks and donated it to Homeless Shelter. I have never had sex (GOLD STAR YEAH!!! For those who don't know what Gold Star is, that means you haven't had sex with someone of opposite gender; Supposed to be joke okay come on)
I am trying to think outside the box and try to do some good for this world, but the attention seeker in me, was aroused by Heath Ledger's performance in Dark Knight. Part of me wants to be that Agent of Chaos. Another Part wants to be the best that I can be, and do goood, or what I define good.
What did it mean when Jesus was baptized? Was he reborn, like any other person getting baptised, did the Spirit come into him then, and not at his birth? I an confuzzled about this.
My Diversity in Policing Course Teacher said that US totalled Iraq, like a drunk driver crashing a fass car. And then, while Iraq is down, we sent missionaries there to convert the people. My teacher said that the US, which is ruled by White Upper Class Men want to make Iraq like the US: A Patriarichal System where people of color, white women, Native people, LGBTQ people are looked as lesser beings without the rights of the people in power. The Police Forces are designed to protect the rights of people in power. Who is the Richest Religion in the world? Some say Islam, others say the whole faith including the denominations who believe in God and Jesus. Roman Catholics, Protestants, Orthodox: They all ask for money, we give them it, thinking, hoping, praying they will do good with it.
What would Jesus do? In all the books written, has he ever said we are to worship him or his Father? I presume so, so I do it in my own way. Do we even have every book that was written, or are there more out there? In fact, are books still being written by people who are real prophets (I heard that no more prophets are to come after Christ, but please just humor me, besides, the Letters of Paul and Peter are in the Bible)?
Is it Discriminatory to tell people about our faith, when they already believe something else? Do we look down on people and think ourselves superior because we think something is right?
In Religion, there may not be any answers for me. Only faith; believing in the words of prophets and leaders who are centuries long dead.
Here's a disturbing thought: God planned on destroying Israel because of all the idolatry and sinnfulness. One of the prophets spoke to Him...and He Changed His Mind...
Think about it: God Could Change His Mind, after thousands of years of waiting. People broke covenants before, so why can't God? Jesus could have been born in Syria or some other country, looked around and said:
Wait
There are more to come, and About Heaven Being Just One City; We can expand: Whole Planets could be HEAVEN...or we could all end up like the people in Matrix Movies: Plugged into whatever we think is Heaven. There are Sadists and Masochists: Sadistic People Like Humiliating Others and Causing Pain. Why not use them in Hell, to punish others for Eternity? They would be in their Heaven. Masochists? They enjoy being humiliated and hurt by others: Hell could be their Heaven too.
What would be my heaven? A computer with Links to Free Music, Free Movies, Free Games Free Everything and they would be all Highest Quality, and getting it delivered to my door? And Noo Consequences at all. Food, Prostitutes, Game Consoles, Energy Drinks, Drugs, People to Clean Up after me? Would that not be the life? Oh and the place I'm living? big enough to have lots of sex? Big enough to drive expensive cars and crash them all, not get hurt and then do Smack, or Crack or whatever kids do these days.
I have no idea what Jesus or Heaven or God is like. Real, not real. I can only Hope that for all my bad bad BAD Things that I do, Continue to do, that I might have a chance of getting into a Heaven. Any Heaven would do because, who wants to die in fire and sulfer? Isn't that what our faith is all about? Dying going to Hell, Dying going to Heaven? If Jesus only wants believers, why should we make others believe? He's forgiven us for all our sins so what's to worry? Why work for something we're gonna get for free anyways?
Maybe Heaven's limited and only the very best gets in. You know what I'm going to do after being on this site? MASTURBATE because that's all I'm good for. You could read all what I wrote and be uncaring, slightly amused, and laughing because I'm such a Doo Doo Guy.
(I'm at school, come on, I'm not going to masturbate I'm here for work.)