If a person doesn't even believe in God, they still want to look back and see that they did good in their time here. That's not possible if we are just automatons.
Not possible for YOU apparently, although I think you underestimate yourself. If it were the case and you were forced to confront the fact that your entire understanding of reality is nothing like you thought, if you didn't kill yourself in despair, you would eventually adapt to your new reality, and if your life was a good one as you define a good life, you would be grateful for that fact. Why can't fleshy automatons feel the same things that people with free will would?
As I have told you already that I am perfectly at peace with that possibility. If free will is just an illusion, then that works, too. All that means is that it always was an illusion, that none of these ideas I call my will were created in the mind by the self but instead were generated in brain circuits and delivered to consciousness. If life was OK before I knew I had only the illusion of free will, why wouldn't it be OK still?
What is a conscience if you are essentially a robot?
The cortical faculty that informs one what feels right and what feels wrong.
You assume because you didn't find something no one can... that's not very open minded of you.
But I did find what you found, and for awhile agreed with you what it was I had found - God. The difference between us is that I got the chance to see that what I had found was not what I had once thought it was.
the naturalistic view is very close minded.
Open-mindedness is not the uncritical acceptance of ideas. It is the willingness to consider evidence dispassionately and to be convinced by a compelling argument, which is perfectly consistent with naturalism. Closed-mindedness, or a closing of the mind to evidence, is a consequence of belief by faith. My mind is closed to belief without sufficient evidentiary support, but that also is not what the term means.
You have good taste in music.
Thanks. I guessed that those would be songs you liked as well.
But you can't claim a spiritual experience if you deny you have a spirit.
Disagree, assuming that you are referring to something like a soul - something immaterial distinct from the body that can enter and leave it. That's your definition of spiritual, not mine. I've already explained that for me, spiritual experience is unrelated to spirits or spiritualists.
Loving a person or animal is a great risk because death is a sure thing in life. I have let myself love a dog again and it's great but everyone's heart bears wounds only God can heal. You should talk to Him about it.
Thanks, but I've worked through this before, and I'm doing so again.
Also, after over a decade as a hospice medical director, I have professional experience with grief:
Hospice Bereavement Care | Interim HealthCare I understand what a privilege it is to grieve. As you said, it's the cost of loving, and a testimony to the one being grieved to have been worthy of that love and that subsequent suffering. I've said that to many survivors.
I expect to die before my wife, I expect here to grieve the loss, and I am grateful that anybody ever loved me like that. And if she goes first, as I said, I will count it a privilege to do the suffering instead, to have loved someone enough that the loss hurt. That's what I meant about the spiritual aspects of grief.