When I look at the world today, sometimes I find myself wondering why my parents didn't wear a condom and spare me all this insanity. I'm not suicidal and I'm not blaming my parents for anything. They did the best they knew. But seeing things getting crazier by the day, knowing that it will get much worse before it gets better... it makes me think.
I love life, love this planet and I'm grateful for every thing I am and have, but if I had a choice, I don't know if I would have been born. Do the good things compensate the bad? Maybe for some people, I guess.
I still don't know the answer to my own question. I don't know if I would have wanted to be born into this world, given the chance. Pointless question, I know.
Hi Vee
I can sure relate to your feelings. I used to have a very dim view of humanity in general and felt I would never even contemplate reproducing!
I don't know if I have the "answer" to your situation but these days I am far more optimistic - sometimes in the face of the very worst of human nature. I never expected to feel this way so I don't know IF I have any words of wisdom that would answer all your questions - and they are good questions and keep asking them - it is far better than complacency.
One question I really wrestled with and still do to some extent was the simple question - how much violence is TOO much violence? I used to obsess over it and wonder what on earth goes through people's minds to even consider bringing children into such a violent & un-happy world!
I cannot explain how things have changed for me - I am totally perplexed but I had a totally unexpected spiritual awakening on a psych ward - not MANY people can say that.
There are a growing number of "experts" who believe the current world situation is the "birth pains" of a far better reality for all of us.
I realise that is a very hard "sell" to people who are currently suffering or feel hopeless.
I hope I am making SOME sense just sitting here madly typing away.
If you have questions feel free to ask me - I cannot claim to have perfect answers to your many objections.
If you was interested here is a spiritual teacher I found on youtube. She went through "Hell" before becoming a healer & teacher. Anyway, you can make up your own mind -
There are many people like Christina with a message of hope & transformation. It can be hard to swallow at times and I still have my doubtful moments ...
Thanks for sharing and wishing you all the very best!
Geoff.