Just_me_Mike
Well-Known Member
Yesterday was a big day for me. I took the day off and spent sometime with my therapist.
Here is what I realized. Our beliefs, no matter how great they are, will never be as certain as that which literally stands before us not requiring belief.
My sons, my wife, the trees and birds, my dogs, etc... all require no belief at all.
What this simple realization means for me, is it allowed me to examine what it is I hold sacred in terms of concepts, morals, guideposts if you will. What I hold dear is trust, love, friendship, hugs and kisses, sitting next to my sons, watching them grow up, looking into my wife's eyes knowing she has desired and cherishes a life with my crazy ***.
I hold dear nature, that silently breathes all around us, yet other times roars so that we know for sure it is there.
For the longest time, I have had a difficult time separating concepts, ideas, that while they seem so real and important, have hijacked what I know for sure is real and important. I have come to understand, it is still OK to be curious about the mysteries of our world, even see if God can be found. I admitted to my wife yesterday my anxiety about placing the end of the world in front of our relationship, and vowed to not do that again.
Not that I won't think about it, and still be anxious about the coming of May 21, because in all fairness it is still intriguing to me, but thanks to time, people at RF, therapy and the patience of my loved ones, I think I can finally put this concept in its rightful place, just a small part of my mind.
Hope this reaches you well, and thanks to anyone that has shown some care, to a stranger on the internet. It is an anomaly of its own right in some way that this is even possible, to care about someone you have never met. Well, wish me luck.
Mike
Here is what I realized. Our beliefs, no matter how great they are, will never be as certain as that which literally stands before us not requiring belief.
My sons, my wife, the trees and birds, my dogs, etc... all require no belief at all.
What this simple realization means for me, is it allowed me to examine what it is I hold sacred in terms of concepts, morals, guideposts if you will. What I hold dear is trust, love, friendship, hugs and kisses, sitting next to my sons, watching them grow up, looking into my wife's eyes knowing she has desired and cherishes a life with my crazy ***.
I hold dear nature, that silently breathes all around us, yet other times roars so that we know for sure it is there.
For the longest time, I have had a difficult time separating concepts, ideas, that while they seem so real and important, have hijacked what I know for sure is real and important. I have come to understand, it is still OK to be curious about the mysteries of our world, even see if God can be found. I admitted to my wife yesterday my anxiety about placing the end of the world in front of our relationship, and vowed to not do that again.
Not that I won't think about it, and still be anxious about the coming of May 21, because in all fairness it is still intriguing to me, but thanks to time, people at RF, therapy and the patience of my loved ones, I think I can finally put this concept in its rightful place, just a small part of my mind.
Hope this reaches you well, and thanks to anyone that has shown some care, to a stranger on the internet. It is an anomaly of its own right in some way that this is even possible, to care about someone you have never met. Well, wish me luck.
Mike
