You seem to have gone off on some tangent of your own. I'm talking about intersubjective/objective in the sense used by Popper - which basically applies to the "real world" that is unavoidable and that we all seem to share. So, at least in principle, any two people, with normal cognition and sight can tell if something is a dog (or at least looks like one) or a building, or a mountain, or an artichoke, or whatever. Similarly everybody can check that the internet, or phones, or cars work.
That is the world science deals with and is demonstrably able to predict and manipulate. No matter how many words you use, you cannot call that as subjective as the endless different notions of god (or morality for that matter, which is a whole other subject in its own right).
You're not dead because, at some level at least, you know that the "real world" is unavoidable and qualitatively different to notions of god. If you tried to defy gravity by jumping off a tall building, you'd be dead, but the same isn't true if you defied your notion of god.
I'm not suggesting that you have a totally bad life but you've posted this is a debating forum and it seems to me that you are (for reasons that are beyond me) desperately trying to convince yourself of something that is rather silly - and I'm not talking about your god.
If it makes you personally happy, I guess that's fine, but why debate it?