Thank you all.
I hope there are not many more ahead, unless I find out something I can do diligently that I actually enjoy doing, that is best for myself, and best for society , and those around me.
Don't get me wrong. I thoroughly love to pray, attend Mass, receive Holy Communion, go to Capitol Hill, war memorials, shrines, Cathedral of Saint Paul, and devotion to my Capitol Hill Queens, the lady of the Rosary, and the creator, but
I think I would be more happy on the other side, in purely Spiritual form, that only death can achieve.
Unless I can make it as a writer, a history professor, a Prophet, a Shaman, a Spiritual leader of some sort, or a religion professor, but my all time dream would be a figure with a similar office as the Emperor of Japan, who is Shinto high priest, mediator between the Kami (spirits), the supernatural Spirit world, and the material world!
There is no degree or college certification, or any place I know of anywhere other than Japan, where one can train to become an ordained clergy member who resembles that, and the branch of Shinto I practice is quite a unique blend with Roman Catholicism enough, that I probably wouldn't make it in Shinto seminary, even if it were offered in my City.
And my criminal history + prayers to entities and Saints that are not canonized, probably would prevent me from ever becoming a Roman Catholic priest as well!
Some people are odd balls enough that they can be extremely devout, and cherish their faith, but be too unconventional to fit in any groups of the same faith. I'd qualify.
And I don't like this unenlightened, bankrupt world enough, to ever want to reach the age of 50. 35 is actually older than I thought I would make it, and I had relatives who believed I'd be dead in my twenties!
Oddly enough, last time I got released from jail, it was with one other inmate, and I saw him filling out the paperwork, and he had the same birthday as myself , April 11!
That took place on feast of Saint Philomena, and I asked Philomena for a sign on March 11, of whether or not my spirit would be bound to her Spirit on my coming birthday, as a birthday present, so that I am always doing her will, which of course is always pleasing to the creator.
Well, it just happens, that it didn't dawn on me till today, that being released with only one other inmate, who has my birthday, on the feast of Saint Philomena, August 11th, perhaps that was one sign the answer to the request is "granted".
Who knows? But either way, I am always fond of coincidence, because if they strengthen faith, hope, charity, and make life more enjoyable, fun, and meaningful, it certainly isn't bad to find delight in them.
But blessings, peace, and good will to you all!
Thank you for your kindness in starting this thread!
One of my gifts was mailed to me by someone I never met in real life, and it came in a custom made box of the Heath Ledger Joker , holding a Joker's card on fire,
with a picture of my face in the Joker's hand: