Yes,
I apologize. I am deeply disturbed by much of Scripture , and it is deeply painful for me to see some of what Scripture has done to divide people, create judgemental condemning minds and hearts, and create bigotry that I have seen first hand in real life, and online.
I can see how reading this OP could lead a person to think I despise God. I love God.
I am sickened by bigotry and cruelty over Doctrines, heresy, and interpretations of an ancient text, where we can never know who is right , with so many contradictions.
Much of my OP was directed at Islam actually though. It is there that I become very sick, reading the Quran, the lifestyle of the Prophet, and what Islam has done to create violence, oppression, and agony in even our 21st century.
But I will accept correction since you are now willing to be reasonable.
I focus too much on what is wrong with Scripture, rather than what is right.
I thank and praise God for his many graces, but I come from a broken home, grew up in institutions, and have lived my life in poverty, which has been worse than had my mother aborted me.
I see misery and a very sick world of chronic torture and heartbreak for countless people.
I have to do more to remind myself that there are a lot of happy people out there whom God has blessed with good lives and good marriages and nuclear families and such.
For some people, dreams come true.