namaskaram Aupmanyav ji
Married 47 years ago. No second chance.
Jai Jai , ....you maried your lovely wife , and you still love her and you will never leave her , this is perfect behavior for a Hindu , ...
So how come once you used to love Shiva , but now you have left him ?
He must be very sad
sorry I just had to ask that question , ......
we know that we canot leave our husband or wife , because we are karmicaly tied , and prehaps we have been tied for many lifetimes , ...
so how can we leave our God to whom we are also karmicaly tied ?
I can only think one thing you are not realy an atheist , you are just not a strong theist , your love for Shiva ji is still there it is just sleeping , it is like when a person is married for many years he forgets to appreciate his wife because they have become over familliar , but if someone takes away his wife he will realise how much he misses her and how much he realy loves her .
so we must wake up your love for Shiv ji .....
blessings to you and all of your family
wishing you a happy good will to all jivas day