Hi Folks..
Emi; Ah,its been along and diverse journey...I will speak here quickly,of a turning point - decision time - how I started to become Who Iam today - but its far too complicated for a welcome thread...
Started off as orthodox Christian - my mum was quite devout,knew the bible intimately..My day - not so - not athiest,he believed in the same god my Mother did,but wasnt as considerate of it all..Lucky for me - despite a 40 year age gap ,they both very set in their ways and beliefs - but still they both kind of allowed me to explore my own spirituality,having given me that firm basis to work from...
So I grew up,encountered the world - girls first,drink,drugs,fast cars,thril seeking always....Really forgot my Soul for a long long while - I can see why now - but for a long long time,I kind of messed my Self up - and those around - did prison a few times - last time was 1991 - I spent a year,pretty much praying to a god I didnt know back then - trying also in vain to seperate my Soul from my body,purposefuly - astral projection,Im sure many are familiar with..See,as a kid this was easy for me to do - so in prison,I tried to recaptrue it again - freedom the obvious necessity - and pray to this god of my youth,as I sorely needed His Presence.....A year - banged up - I spent every possibl emoment I could in prayer,seeking Communion - I got my Self purposefuly segregated,to be alone and work my Self out finally......No luck - no joy at all - no response from the god,no hint of success at the projection either....
So - Im released - went straight back to my old ways actually...Party party...Three days none stop,booze,hash,cocaine,couple of lsd tabs...I remember clearly walking down the street and making a Conscious chioce - this god simply didnt exist,wasnt real at all - I literally gave this god the bird - finger in the air - F you,the god who want there,I SURVIVED,WITHOUT you.. I vowed never to give it another thought or utter another prayer as long as I lived.....
.But then - party winds down finally - 3rd night,I finally get some alone time.....Im listening to Jean Michel Jarre,headphones on - it triggered a most remarkable experience that would change me forever more...Tape finishes - the static hiss cut sin (remember that..?..man how the world changed..lol) - so Im there,comfortably numb as thy say - thinking now,is this side 2 of the tape,will it turn over automatically,or have I gotta break this trance state and move..White noise,static hiss - I hear a voice,deep male - continous - Aummmmmmmm - fully intrigued (I had istened to the album many many times,never heard THIS though) - other ear - a female voice -aummmmmmm - and im "rising like ripplng laying on water,....First ear,another voice,higher in pitch - followed by th eopposit eear,higher pitch - on an up they took me....The room filled with Light,Im rising slowly,turning slowly..
I left my body - fuly so - even had a fleeting idea I may had died,stroke or seizure,drug overdose - I didnt care at first....Nothng seemed to matter..."I" am rising up in a tunnel of pure white light - its massive - below me,is my front room,my comatose body on the sofa - above and aroud me,Light,expanding upwards..And the voices - pure WOW,awesome - there are now words to describe it - inthe LIght,I can almost see figures,movement fo rsure but unable to discern it properly - but it didnt matter - dorectly in front of me,I see an "image form my life - a childhhod memeory - my first fight actualy.....Except Im not really "looking" at it - Im EXPERIENCING it again - fuly so - Philip his name was,my friend,we fought over something stupid - first time I ever drew blood in anger - I relive dit all again as if I was there,yet felt and knew what HE knew - very starange - all of it,fully disclosed,my thoughts emoitons,HIS mixed in as same experience......
But then,swiftly,another image - the first didnt disappear or stop - but another cam ealong side - and then another and another......Soon I was viewing all the inmportan decisions of my life - all at once - and fully present wihtin each expeience - and also alongside this,I KNEW I was on my sofa,in a trance- and I kNEW I Was in a tunnel of Light,and leaving my body.....ALL AT ONCE - very very strange.....I began to rise faster,turn much more wuickly - above me,coming down,as I was goin gup - there was a "smethng" - i felt three distinct Beings - and I new that if I kust ooke up,I would see what i can only term as Angels - I fully expceted to see them,like a part fme knew what was really hapening....My mortl mind,RALLY had a panic attack - my mothers voice,very clear - Peter,I wont judge you or love you any less,but one day son,you will have to face god and anwer for your actions directly !!
That thought,realisation - scare me to my very Soul - look at hwta I had JUST done - the ay I had begged then turned my back and mocked - my life - I wil share ddetails later perhaps,but for now wil say,I was once what I consider evil - wilfully selfish inthe extreme withut conscioence - and here were Angels,coming down FOR ME - specifically for me it semed....I totally freaked out - as youd imagnie...I saw my body,like hundreds of feet below me - and I desperatly wanted back in - immediatly,I plummetted,hit my bodu quite violently it seemed - immediatly cause it to stand violently,yankng headphones,stereo smashed on the floor.....I rush to the kitcjen - am violently sick - absolutely bitterly cold - and scared beyond all reason... At first I dare not even think about it - I felt so "loose",like I could just step out and be gone..And the Angels - coming for mE - JUDGEMENT my mind screamed - and surely,hel,damnaton would follow......
Well - with hindsight - I know my Soul forcd a choice upon me - time to sit up and take notice finally....I began t seek my truth,in eranest - now fully convinced,there is a "god" and its agents....This was to be my first "adult" experinece - amny many more would follow,and still do of course...I will tell you - eventually - I met those that I consider to be ACTUAL Angels - and I will tell you also that I have encountered the one who is Christ,directly so..
So I nknow already some reading this,wil thnk me a stupid stoner,fried my mind and freaked out - and at first of course I believed this was so perhaps - but Im sure of it now in my own mind,as things revealed in these experiences - future knowldge of my individual life and circumstances primarily - things I simply should not physically know,yet are revealed in spirit anyway by these others - this is a definate proof to me..I am shown things that cme about exactly as foretold - like word for word converstaions,precise and exact - and yet I have no control over the world out there or the people init of ocurse - so can only trust these Beings as authentic then,when the foretold experience plays out here,in the world we share..
Over the years,I have come to trust this communion absolutely,without question..It has revealed some truths,that I consider to be universal,fundamental truths - the how and why creation actualy happens - our purpose,the nature of Our Father - and crucially - the lies,errors,manipulations of those who profess to "lead "us in spiritual truth.....Christ has some things to say,that many wil find shocking - many will find enlightening - and many will simpy outright refuse to believe...Nevertheless - for mySelf,as I say - Iam shown my personal proof from that source,have learned to trust it fully - even when it tells me things that directly contradicts accepted truth in the world "out there"...
So anyway - thats a start - I`ll present more - a lot more - once I find my feet here...As I say,this is not realy the proper place for this thread I dont think - and usually,I just add my two cents worth to whatever thread catches my eye,whatever subject seems relevant to my direct experiences...I will say here though - I have no taboo subjects - wil answer any question truthfully as best I can...At times I wil speak of a past - a person I used to be - and at other times I will seak of the person Iam now and Who I Am becoming..If I was to put here - one statemtn that sums thi sjourney up nicely - then it would be form Yeshua who is Christ - first and foremst He said,KNOW THY SELF - an in essence,that is precisely what this journey reveals...
