Hello,
I think that everyone has a God, one way or another. Even people that call themselves atheists or "non-believers" have one, though they don't like to call it by that name. It's what you priorities above everything else, what you pray to and what, in some way, enslaves you. For some its money or their career, for others its sex and vanity, I don't know. It can be so many things. I just think that if your God isn't something transcendent then you risk your God being something mundane.
I like the way Paul Tillich termed religion as one's "Ultimate Concern". In this sense what you say is correct. Even the atheist has something that they place as their ultimate concern. I throw into this also and say that "God" is one's view of Ultimate Reality, and everyone has a view of that, even if that view is a purely materialistic, reductionist, everything is physics and nothing more view.
Like everyone else, that is how faith expresses itself in them in their objects of belief. It is still faith, not merely a "lack of belief". There is still a view that is held about the ultimate truth in some fashion or another. It's faith expressed as atheism is all.
Also I consider God to be the Ideal Human. I don't know if it makes sense. Some Ideal to aspire to, that isn't myself (forever imperfect and able to trick myself into not doing what needs to be done) or another human (because no one is perfect and any mentor or idol can fall of his or her pedestal and disappoint you in any given moment, or you can end up outgrowing them).
I would say from a Christian perspective you might see Jesus as the Ideal Human, in that he represents the Divine fully realized in the human form, or our humanity. The Incarnate Christ, is the ideal in other words. God is the Infinite Source, which pours or empties itself into creation, and the ideal human is the one which transcends or goes beyond simply our biology and awakens to our innate divinity which arises from the Source.
This to me is what Enlightenment means. Which is how I understand the meaning of the Christian term "Salvation". It is awakening to the Light that is within ourselves and the whole of creation itself. It is that Oneness that is realized beyond the eye of the flesh, or the human ego.
So when you Ideal is something or someone that is perfect, benevolent and, in a way, unobtainable, you will never cease working on yourself. The bad part is that any Ideal ends up being a judge.
The fact you say this, says to me you've done a great deal of interior work, or introspection. It's that God as the inner critic, a projection of our own egos as God trying to parent ourselves without skill, that we beat ourselves with. "Oh, wretched man that I am! Bad me! Bad!", as if that somehow makes one bit of difference at all.
That is simply the ego trying to shame itself, an act of false humility, which in time we learn is simply a game the ego continues to play to keep itself in control, as opposed to us, our spiritual will that is, dissolving that through surrender. The ego is tenacious, and hides itself through spirituality in these ways that makes us think we are doing spiritual work, when it's really just an avoidance. "I am good, really. See the penance I do? I throw ashes on my head even."
But the good part is that it's an honest and that it makes you have an objective. And a person with an objective that can evaluate his own progress is a very happy person. So for me it's something like: having an Ideal = being a happy person.
A word of caution here. While having an image of what we would become as a goal, we have to be mindful not to make Enlightenment or transcendence a matter of achievement. That's a trap of the ego. Through effort, we attain God. Through force we achieve the Divine.
It's a very paradoxical thing. While we need to make an effort, that effort is to get out of the way to not make an effort. We strive to not strive. We work to not work. We learn to unlearn. I often say that meditation is simply the practice that teaches us how to simply allow what is already fully there within us, to flow out of us, without effort. I look at it as like making an effort to remove the debris that is preventing the river from flowing. It's not attaining the river. It's unblocking it.
I love the part where you mention tolerance and humility. It reminds me of Matthew 5: Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. I've always found "poor in spirit" those who fell so low that they have lost their pride, and so, they've turned humble. And when one is humble, he is open for any kind of revelation.
Yes. It's like that story about the Zen master with a guest who comes and sits at his table, and the master begins pouring tea into his cup for him.
Nan-in, a Japanese master during the Meiji era, received a university professor who came to inquire about Zen. Nan-in served tea. He poured his visitor’s cup full, and then kept on pouring. The professor watched the overflow until he no longer could restrain himself. “It is overfull. No more will go in!” Like this cup, Nan-in said, you are full of your own opinions and speculations. How can I show you Zen unless you first empty your cup?
Genuine humility makes us open, willing to be taught. That's not an easy place for those who have tried to fill their own cup all the time to come to. That is to me what the meaning of surrender means.
I like, also, how you clearly differentiate between faith and religious organizations. I find that many non-believers tend to mix those up.
Indeed. You'll find that topic debated endlessly around here.
It was Søren Kierkegaard who said "both disbelieve and superstition are anguish for faith". He also said that the true believer has doubts. Doubt is an essential element of faith, a foundation.
Another deeply insightful realization. Doubt serves faith. Faith without doubt is a weak faith. Again, another saying from Zen comes to mind here.
Great doubt, great awakening;
Little doubt, little awakening;
No doubt, no awakening.”
The "true believer" has the least faith of all. They substitute beliefs for a lack of faith. Beliefs are all they have, and will fight tenaciously to preserves them. Faith on the other hand can not only face challenges to beliefs, it welcomes them. Doubt purifies faith through ridding itself of impurities, like bad or outdated beliefs.
In other words, believing or having faith that God exists without ever having doubted such existence would not be a faith worth having. For example, it does not require faith to believe that a pencil or a table exist, since one can see and touch them. Likewise, to believe or have faith in God is to know that there is no perceptual or other access to him, and still have faith.
I do believe that at a certain point, faith can be replaced by actual experience, when it comes to spiritual matters or faith in God. What then remains is finding better ways to attempt to talk about it, and theological ideas certainly have room for doubt. There is a way to access or apprehend the Divine however, and that is through actual experience. However, that transcends religious views altogether.
A last quote from a Zen poet comes to mind here. And by they way, I'm not a Zen Buddhist, it's just coincidence all my quotes today are coming from them.
There are many paths that lead from the foot of the mountain, but at its peak we all gaze at the single bright moon.
There is the theological God, and then there is God.