Hello and welcome Jack13. It's good to explore what others believe and see if there is anything that resonates with you. Agnosticism is a good place to start. Those who really don't know what to believe are in a better place than those who blindly follow one way or the other.
I too was raised C of E but left for the same reasons. I explored many different faiths and came up with nothing that touched that deep part of my heart that was empty, but needed filling.
I did not find God in my search, and as I was despairing that I would never find out the truth....He found me. I answered a knock at my door one day and it changed my life. I had slammed that door many times, but for some reason, that day I actually listened. I now have answers to all my questions.
I hope you find the answers to yours.
Your heart will tell you what to believe.
All the best....
