Early life raised catholic, though was REALLY mystical even at age 4. (I went around the house feeling like energy was vibrating through me, asking mom if she felt it too, she said it was all in my mind, so it stopped for a while). Got "born again" at age 14, got really conflicted for a while because christian friends wanted me to do nothing but study bible, i wanted only to play video games and D&D.
I left it at undecided til age 20.
Began studying mysticism in 1987-88. Made first tarot deck in 1989. Swapped virginity with a lovely,wonderful &mystical woman who did an impromptu ceremony (did not understand it at the time, but now think it was cool). She and I are friends again now, after almost 20 years of not talking
Jan.20, 1990 I went out into the woods (after reading Shambhala, by Chogyam Trungpa) and had a mystical encounter with the trees. I saw from corner of my eye a group of pines that at first glance seemed to be a group of green-robed druids. I sat before them and said jokingly, "Elders! Give me your wisdom!"...then I was shocked when they answered. They said "Leave your girlfriend. Until then we shall say nothing." WoW. So I tried to leave my g/f, and failed (she cried alot), so what wound up happening was the universe intervened to break us up in the worst possible way. SO, I learned from that to be honest, and when the universe sends a message, to try and follow it! If you try and go against it, well....Life can be a bit rocky for a while, LoL. This is why I have no problem accepting others' paths, because I know what happens if you try to go against your destiny. It aint pretty.
June 1990, after meeting greatest pal Duncan, embarked with him and my sister Heather (and others) upon a journey to understand the connction between dreams, consciousness and apparent reality. This journey still is ongoing, though we have has lots o'fun (many, many ups and downs, too) along the way.
I am currently attempting to organize all the concepts we came up with, the little rituals we invented, the language of the Dreamtoungue, etc. into a coherent book. The task is to do it without framing it as a new "religion", and to avoid espousing any particular religion...to just make it a book about mystical practices themselves, what we found out and some ideas other poeple may try.--its really daunting to write it without any personal comment, just letting the reader draw his/her own conclusions. But as the years have passed, its gotten easier, LoL--I am much calmer now.:angel2:
