Viraja
Jaya Jagannatha!
Many here on this thread said, that even Advaitins worship personal gods and yes, i'm aware of that, but the idea of worshipping a separate entity is not really my thing.
To me, one remains totally on the mercy of this higher entity. And this 'dependency' is something that i really don't like.
If something breaks down in my house, i would rather prefer to have the knowledge and skill to fix it myself, instead of depending on someone else.
In the path of bhakti, i have observed when i was a dualist long ago, that help from above doesn't come to all.
Even if it comes, it doesn't come easily. One has to wait a huge long time, in order for his prayers to be heard. Many of us (including myself) don't have the patience to wait forever just to get an answer from above.
In my case, the answer didn't come from above, even after praying daily for many hours with full of devotion. From this i came to the conclusion, that God doesn't really care for his children.
That he is not really as compassionate as people claim HE is.
Again, this is just my understanding and not the final truth.
Due to this bitter experience, i chose the path of enquiry, learning, studying, discussing etc.
I believe if i can apply the divine knowledge in my wordly life, my problems will not completely go away, but will be reduced to greater extent.
:=)
I can relate to how that feels, Greg. When I worshiped some devatas earlier like Varahi, Hanuman ji, Nrusimha, I did not feel any cognition on their part as to whether they even recognized I was praying to them vigorously. It was like praying to an empty space.
But certain other devatas like Krishna and Tirupathi Balaji are usually very reciprocating, I think. Because I had some unique spiritual dreams on praying to them.
I came here to delete my former message, because I thought it was rude for me to comment on something I did not know about (advaita) even though I was sharing a valid observation, but see that you did not mind. Thanks.