I dunno... I feel empty and conflicted.

[Jainarayan]

I have my own medication to take (hopefully I'll get it today!), and even though I don't think I really need counselling, I sure am going to take it if someone gave it to me for free!

Krishna loves all His cows. Even the purple ones! :yes:

But do they give blueberry flavored milk?

From the story of Ramaa Ekadasi Vaisnava Calendar Reminder Services*|* Rama Ekadasi...

"One should not differentiate between the Ekadasis of the light and dark parts of the month. As we have seen, both can award pleasure in this world and liberate even the most sinful and fallen souls. Just as black cows and white cows give equally good quality milk. So the Ekadasis of the dark fortnight (Krishna paksha) and the light fortnight (shukla or Gaura paksha) award the same high degree of merit and eventually liberate one from the repeated cycle of birth and death."

 

[Jainarayan]

:bow:



jai jai :bow:

dear touched by the lord ,

happy to hear your news , yes narayana takes care of every thing

It's funny (not the :biglaugh: kind of funny), but I feel "lighter" not being self-burdened with ritual and rules and regulations. I have indeed sat at my computer terminal, called up some prayers from Word, and sat there mentally reciting them. In fact, they are the prayers I use in my "greatly reduced" puja (actually just an aarti). There are just three I haven't memorized yet, so I need to read them. But the others are reciting the names and mantras of the Lord, which I know. Having reduced the prayers, I can focus on them better. Quality, not quantity.

 

[Marble]

It started a few days ago and came to a head yesterday: a feeling of emptiness.

Perhaps this is a sign that your spiritual practise works?
That feeling of emptiness coulod mean that the grip of Maya on your mind eases a bit.

My doctor recommended yesterday that I lose 30-40 lbs. Exercise is part of it, but I don't know where to go with diet.

Welcome in my world.
I'm going with dinner cancelling now.
No effects so far, because today will just be the 5th of my "diet", but I always hear that it really helps to improve your health when you stop eating (at least) 14 hours before you get up next moring.
So I try not to eat anything after 17h.

 

[atanu]

I have a collection in my iPod that I listen to through the truck radio. They truly are uplifting.

What is a truck radio?

 

[Onkara]

Hi Atanu
It is the radio in his lorry.

 

[atanu]

It's funny (not the :biglaugh: kind of funny), but I feel "lighter" not being self-burdened with ritual and rules and regulations. I have indeed sat at my computer terminal, called up some prayers from Word, and sat there mentally reciting them. In fact, they are the prayers I use in my "greatly reduced" puja (actually just an aarti). There are just three I haven't memorized yet, so I need to read them. But the others are reciting the names and mantras of the Lord, which I know. Having reduced the prayers, I can focus on them better. Quality, not quantity.

Eventually, the breathing itself has to become the worship. Till then there will be blues of separation. I think I am in the same page as you are.:yes:

Though I do not have a truck radio. I do not have a truck even.

 

[atanu]

Hi Atanu
It is the radio in his lorry.

I have stomach ache due to laughing, imagining a vaishanava with a lorry. Though it is perfectly possible.

 

[Jainarayan]

Perhaps this is a sign that your spiritual practise works?
That feeling of emptiness coulod mean that the grip of Maya on your mind eases a bit.

Really!? I didn't think it worked that way. Well, there's a lot I don't know. I'm feeling quite a bit better about the whole thing, knowing that thinking of Krishna & Radha and Their forms is as valid, if not more so, worship than a 15 minute puja.

Welcome in my world.
I'm going with dinner cancelling now.
No effects so far, because today will just be the 5th of my "diet", but I always hear that it really helps to improve your health when you stop eating (at least) 14 hours before you get up next moring.
So I try not to eat anything after 17h.

I don't eat after 17:00... I eat after 20:00. I get so engrossed in what I'm doing, especially on nights I decide to pick up the guitar that I forget to eat until 8-9 pm. That's probably one reason why I don't sleep well. On the other hand, if I go to bed hungry, I don't sleep either. "They" say a carb snack at bedtime is good. It helps release serotonin in the brain and make you drowsy. I ought to stick with a glass of milk and a small peanut butter sandwich. I have to cut portion sizes and get onto a regular feeding schedule. I go too long without eating, then I eat too much too late.

Eventually, the breathing itself has to become the worship. Till then there will be blues of separation. I think I am in the same page as you are.:yes:

Yes, my breathing has been off. The other night I did japa with regular breathing. Between each recitation I took in a breath and let it out as I did the recitation of the mantra. It slowed me down to concentrate on my recitations and Whom I was doing them to, and why. I have a long way to go to perfect it.

I have stomach ache due to laughing, imagining a vaishanava with a lorry. Though it is perfectly possible.

I should have said my truck's radio. We Yanks use the word truck. It's a Chevy Silverado, a full size pickup truck. You should see how it's tricked out... I have a small statue of Ganesha on the dashboard, and some small pictures taped here and there, as well as some pendants of deities hanging from the rear-view mirror. On top of that, I look like a small bear. I'm overweight now, but I'm also pretty muscular from powerlifting (5'5" & 220lbs) and shaved bald. I've frightened people unintentionally.

 

[atanu]

I should have said my truck's radio. We Yanks use the word truck. It's a Chevy Silverado, a full size pickup truck. You should see how it's tricked out... I have a small statue of Ganesha on the dashboard, and some small pictures taped here and there, as well as some pendants of deities hanging from the rear-view mirror. On top of that, I look like a small bear. I'm overweight now, but I'm also pretty muscular from powerlifting (5'5" & 220lbs) and shaved bald. I've frightened people unintentionally.

A jolly post. You are out of blue.

 

[Jainarayan]

Thanks.