Have you done any research on the "typical" Christian church and where it got most of its beliefs?
Was Jesus a "typical" Jew? Were his apostles? Nothing Jesus did was ever "typical" of the Jewish system...in fact he castigated the religious leaders at every opportunity. He was viewed as an apostate....a heretic.
God separated his true worshippers from unbelievers because he did not want their worship contaminated with beliefs and practices that God condemned. For example he warned Israel....
“When you have entered into the land that Jehovah your God is giving you, you must not learn to imitate the detestable practices of those nations. 10 There should not be found in you anyone who makes his son or his daughter pass through the fire, anyone who employs divination, anyone practicing magic, anyone who looks for omens, a sorcerer, 11 anyone binding others with a spell, anyone who consults a spirit medium or a fortune-teller, or anyone who inquires of the dead. 12 For whoever does these things is detestable to Jehovah, and on account of these detestable practices Jehovah your God is driving them away from before you. 13 You should prove yourself blameless before Jehovah your God." (Deuteronomy 18:9-12)
Yet, Israel repeatedly adopted false religious practices from the pagan nations around them. God punished them, time and again for their disobedience respecting his protective laws, but when they repented, he forgave them. Some of their practices were heinous, like sacrificing their children in a fire to Molech. (Jeremiah 7:31) How could they have strayed so far off the path?....yet Jesus warned that "weeds" of false Christianity would also be sown in much the same way. "Christians" would emulate their Jewish predecessors in much the same conduct....adopting false worship. Most of Christendom's doctrines are not Christian at all, but you wouldn't know that if you didn't do your homework. You assume that you have been told the truth....but from what you have said I can see that you haven't....not even close.
Paul warned...
"Pay attention to yourselves and to all the flock, among which the holy spirit has appointed you overseers, to shepherd the congregation of God, which he purchased with the blood of his own Son. 29 I know that after my going away oppressive wolves will enter in among you and will not treat the flock with tenderness, 30 and from among you yourselves men will rise and speak twisted things to draw away the disciples after themselves." (Acts 20:28-30)
So did Peter....
"For prophecy was at no time brought by man’s will, but men spoke from God as they were moved by holy spirit.
2 However, there also came to be false prophets among the people, as there will also be false teachers among you. These will quietly bring in destructive sects, and they will even disown the owner who bought them, bringing speedy destruction upon themselves. 2 Furthermore, many will follow their brazen conduct, and because of them the way of the truth will be spoken of abusively. 3 Also, they will greedily exploit you with counterfeit words. But their judgment, decided long ago, is not moving slowly, and their destruction is not sleeping.
4 Certainly God did not refrain from punishing the angels who sinned, but threw them into Tarʹta·rus, putting them in chains of dense darkness to be reserved for judgment. 5 And he did not refrain from punishing an ancient world, but kept Noah, a preacher of righteousness, safe with seven others when he brought a flood upon a world of ungodly people. 6 And by reducing the cities of Sodʹom and Go·morʹrah to ashes, he condemned them, setting a pattern for ungodly people of things to come" (2 Peter 2:1-6)
The patterns of history are all there. God does not alter his standards. Justice demands his actions concerning those who misrepresent and slander him.
I can tell you now, that with an attitude like you have displayed here on RF, the god you seek does not exist except in your imagination. But the God you are running from, doesn't either....that is the saddest part of all.
There is no "heaven or hell" scenario and never was. All God has ever offered mankind is life under his terms, or a forfeit of life for those who refused them. It is not more complicated than that. There is no trinity, no immortal soul, no hellfire....all these are introduced doctrines that came from outside of the Bible.
I urge you to do more research. There is much at stake.