I observe.

[Emma Part]

May 17th, 2010.


My head could not be any more empty as it is now. Still this day is making me start writing.
Although I don’t know where it is about, or how it will end. I think it’s about my desperate
philosophic brain. Not being able to know the reason we’re here. The reason we step outside
our door every single day. What makes us?

At this moment I’m looking at the ceiling, a stein of a dead mosquito, I have yet to clean, on it.
The mosquito is female, she probably had some eggs, a family to take care of. I ended it all,
I did not let her suck blood out of my veins, I stopped her from feeding her children. She is dead.
Her life, her free life came to an end. Where is she now? This insect had brains, brains which
controlled her every day, brains that made her wake up, feel a little pain in her paw or made
her feel the urge to go and get blood for her children, like her ancestors, millions and millions,
perhaps billions of years ago did the same.

I have children. I work for them. I am the blood hunter of our little family
. We are a mosquito family, the father brought us together. He did his job and left.
What differs me from this mosquito? I’m sure the mosquito is gone now, it’s black.
No heaven full of blood. No relatives, siblings or ancestors to be with.

From birth till my age now, 30. I have been going to church.
I am sealed, baptized and loved. I have learned and studied the book which
Christians consider to be the basis of life page by page.
But now, it changed. I believe in the absence of God.

 

[angellous_evangellous]

Now that's a bad hangover.

 

[dust1n]

From birth till my age now, 30. I have been going to church.
I am sealed, baptized and loved. I have learned and studied the book which
Christians consider to be the basis of life page by page.
But now, it changed. I believe in the absence of God.

Feels good, no?

 

[Thief]

Emma!
You have wandered into the lions den!

Take your eyes off that mosquito.
'Sell you coat...buy a sword!'

 

[Emma Part]

Thanks for the comment Thief) The two forummembers before you should watch out for that sword)))

 

[Empty]

May 17th, 2010.


My head could not be any more empty as it is now.

You may not think so, but you are so close to the truth. There is no God watching over us, there is no being sitting around controlling all of our actions, condemning us. No, not at all. The fact this is happening shows that a great transformation is taking place, do not supress it or try to stop it. It is inevitable. Because it has begun, the end will come. Just observe what is occuring, detach yourself from it. Just be Aware!

Quite honestly there is no reason why we are here, so stop wondering. Empty yourself of all questions, relieve yourself of wondering about anything and just observe. At that time the Truth will be imparted to you.

 

[wmjbyatt]

At that time the Truth will be imparted to you.

By whom, eh? Check your verbal voices when making theological points... they're powerful.

Emma: The gist of Empty's post was, however, mostly correct. The nihilistic tone shows an unnecessary degree of fatalism, but that's only important on the road to emptiness. Irrelevant once one is empty. As Empty says, ride it. Just be here-now. Such is the way.

 

[Noaidi]

Emma
I've no idea what you said. I just kept looking at your avatar...

 

[Jayhawker Soule]

Emma
I've no idea what you said.

It's the sound of one bland crapping ... :run:

 

[Noaidi]

It's the sound of one bland crapping ... :run:

Yes, you are full of wit, Jayhawker (was 'wit' the word I meant to use...? Perhaps something similar!)

 

[ahmed.zafar]

The books of Christians have change a lot with the duration of time. Every generation has done some changing in it so that they will have some ease at the things that Allah forbid. After Jesus Hazarat Muhammad came Upon whom Quran(Islamic Holy book) was bestow which is the Words of God. A single word has never been changed and never will be. Islam is a truly logical religion which explains everything. Allah(GOD) created Human(Adam) and asked angels to bow before Him every angel did except for one the devil. Devil said that he is created from fire and human(Adam) is made from soil, how can i bow in front of human when his level lower then me. Allah became angry and cursed devil. Devil then take a vow that until the end of time he will keep on influencing them to envy each other and to destroy each other. And will divert them so the will not follow Allah's order.
Allah told devil that no matter how many tries he do to influence Humans he will not be able to influence those who truly believes in Allah.

Adam asked Allah that he is lonely in heaven so Allah created eve from Adams ribs and asked them not to eat fruit from a specific tree. No one knows what fruit it was. Then Devil influenced them to eat it hence making Humans to not follow Allah's order. After that Allah sent Adam and Eve to Earth for disobeying Him. After that Adams sons were similarly were influenced by Devil and one brother killed the other. Hence gaining the first sin of Killing. Allah has created this world as a test for Humans. Allah loves those people who take care of others and everyone around themselves even if the person is not Muslim.

No matter what your religion is just try hard to take care of every human around you. Help the poor and needy. Allah is very merciful. The best gift from Allah is this life so be happy and try to make everyone else happy so that we can defeat devil.

 

[joea]

Welcome to RF...grab a cup of coffee, relax..

 

[it's_sam]

My head could not be any more empty as it is now. Still this day is making me start writing.
Although I don’t know where it is about, or how it will end. I think it’s about my desperate
philosophic brain. Not being able to know the reason we’re here. The reason we step outside
our door every single day. What makes us?

At this moment I’m looking at the ceiling, a stein of a dead mosquito, I have yet to clean, on it.
The mosquito is female, she probably had some eggs, a family to take care of. I ended it all,
I did not let her suck blood out of my veins, I stopped her from feeding her children. She is dead.
Her life, her free life came to an end. Where is she now? This insect had brains, brains which
controlled her every day, brains that made her wake up, feel a little pain in her paw or made
her feel the urge to go and get blood for her children, like her ancestors, millions and millions,
perhaps billions of years ago did the same.

I have children. I work for them. I am the blood hunter of our little family
. We are a mosquito family, the father brought us together. He did his job and left.
What differs me from this mosquito? I’m sure the mosquito is gone now, it’s black.
No heaven full of blood. No relatives, siblings or ancestors to be with.

From birth till my age now, 30. I have been going to church.
I am sealed, baptized and loved. I have learned and studied the book which
Christians consider to be the basis of life page by page.
But now, it changed. I believe in the absence of God.

It is hard to find meaning in America especialy with what people are expecting of everyone to be succsessfull. The reason I think your not finding this with the areas of your life that are important to you might be because your mind (subconscious) knows there are conflicting areas. I see God telling you to find what it is in yourself that God gave you to offer. It also seems to me that you have a good gift for poetry and you should maybe rewrite that masquito thing into a more complete meaning Native American beliefs include finding life in any stationary object, Ofcourse alot of the time they were under the influence of certain plants but there is a way of thinking that gets overlooked. The exercise is to find how natural occurances make animilistic behavior (example: a shadow of a bush that resembles a dog licking its paw when the gust blows). There is life in everything if you are willing to see it because the very basic need for everything to exist is motion. If you keep moving and trying to improve your mental path you will find what has been standing in your way.

 

[839311]

What makes us?

Human nature.

No relatives, siblings or ancestors to be with.

The souls of mosquitos may be in heaven with us, if such a place even exists. Who knows.

But now, it changed. I believe in the absence of God.

Perhaps this change is part of your set journey. Perhaps God wants you to experience a vast number of perspectives, in hope that you can get as much out of each one, and so develop and improve yourself. This may be a blessing for you, even though it may look like a dark thing. I urge you to keep an open mind, and to keep yourself from going from one extreme to the other - that is, from totally accepting god as part of reality, to no belief at all.