I really am "up against it" Now............

[michel]

Marie and I have finished "gutting" her dead Auntie's bungalow in the last three weeks since the funeral; believe me, it was a horrendous job.

On top of that, Marie had an op to remove the growth inside her mouth and throat.

She was just beginning to eat, and we had a follow up appointment in three week's time for the results of the Histology.

Unfortunately, a letter came on Saturday morning to say that they want to see her Tuesday; we tried to convince ourselves that it was a technical "glytch" at the hospital, but they have confirmed (by telephone) today that they want to see her ASAP........That is scary.

We went to the hospital today, and were wisked off to a quiet corner, and werew seen by two consultants, a senior nurse, and a councellor...................

We realised straight away that our worst fears had come true; Marie has cancer.

The cancer is apparently localised (they think) and they want to remove a 3 mm deep and 3 cms long strip off her tongue - they seem to believe that that will be all, and an end to it. However, they want her to have a scan before the op, and are therefore putting off doing the op to thursday next week..........the scanning department are short of staff and they will try to get us(her) in for a scan this week, or early next week.

On top of that, we are waiting for her to go and have another op (next month) which will be a investigation of her ovaries, womb, etc (suspected cancer); the local Doctor has recommended that she have a total hystorectomy.

We have heard from the hospital today that she has been put on the emmergency list for that op, but now realize that they won't be able to do that one until her throat is healed sufficiently to be able to take intubation........

Having taken our younger son James and his absolutely beautiful girlfriend (they are very serious about each other) to the airport at 5.30 am this morning, I finally went to bed today at 2.30 pm, and have just woken up (4.45pm), realizing that the whole thing is not a bad dream.

Obviously, I am gutted.

Prayers, thoughts, anything would be welcome, obviously.....I can't imagine life without her, and while I desperately want to believe that she will come out of this, I realize that the odds are against her. One cancerous attack in one part of her body is enough - two lots is not worth even thinking about.................

 

[Buttercup]

Oh Michel, I am so sorry for you and Marie! My very warmest thoughts and concern are sent your way. I wish I could give you a big hug. Please keep us updated. God Bless you.

 

[Mister_T]

Michel, my heart goes out to you and your wife. Although I have never been in your particular situation, I have been in a similiar scenarios and I know that they are not easy to deal with.

You can be sure that I will be sending some positive energy your way and that I will be praying that everything will turn out ok.

 

[jacquie4000]

Michel, My thoughts are with you and your family. Big hugs are on the way.

 

[Hema]

This brings tears to my eyes. :sad: I can’t even imagine what you’re going through. My prayers and best wishes are with you and Auntie Marie. I really don’t know what else to say except…when something is too big for your hands; leave it in God’s hands. Let go and let God.

 

[FatMan]

I'll hope and pray for the best. Cancer caught in an early stage is so much better a recovery rate these days.

 

[lunamoth]

Oh Michel, so sad to here about all of this. "Localized" sounds quite hopeful, as much as such terrible news can be any way. You, Marie and your family will be in my prayers. :hug:

 

[The Seeker]

My heart goes out to you and your family. I truly hope that Marie's operation goes smoothly and the doctors give her a favorable prognosis.

 

[porkchop]

I am so sorry for you and your wife and family, Michel, its so hard to express things on this darn computer, please know that you will be in my prayers. Medicine and doctors can do amazing things, you know.
Take carexxx

 

[slabbey06]

I will be praying for you and your wife. I'll pray not only that Marie will be healed, but that the both of you find the peace and strength you need.

 

[Gentoo]

Best wishes and thoughts to you and yours.

 

[lizskid]

Prayers to you, Marie and the boys. I know her doctors will do the right thing. Just know that you have not let it go and be solid in fact that they seem to be confident also. :hug:

 

[Mike182]

i'm so sorry to hear this Michel... you have my prayers and thoughts.

 

[BFD_Zayl]

I wish you the best of luck. i'm sure everything will turn out fine.

 

[s2a]

Best wishes to you and yours...

I am not unfamiliar with the angst and concerns you must be feeling at this point, as two of my own immediate family members have also (quite recently) battled cancer (breast, and prostate).

Know that medical science is ever moving forward at unprecedented speed, and that surviving for just two years, practically ensures another five or ten of survivability.

Just the same, there is no greater inspiration for anyone afflicted by grave illness then the assurance of loved ones that they are loved, and that living on for their sake alone is enough to justify any battle, no matter the challenges or obstacles.

All the best,

Cal

 

[jamaesi]

Oh, Michel...

You and yours will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[Valjean]

This is terrible news, Michel. The family must be devastated.
I hope everything turns out well. My thoughts go out to you & Marie.

 

[Random]

I am sorry for your troubles, Michel. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts.

 

[michel]

Bless you all; your kind words help - because they fill me with hope.

One "hurdle" that we have got through is that, because of a lack of Radiologists, there was some doubt that Marie could have a a scan before the op. Obviously, if that reveals any other localized "pockets" they would be far better taken out at the time, than for her to have to undergo yet another op. They have managed to fit her in one day before the op.

Marie's attitude (at the moment) is one of fury - and I understand that, and cannot blame her; she has never really been a smoker (although she used to smoke the odd cigarette - maybe one or two a week), she has never drank to excess, has always been meeticulous about oral hygene.......It just isn't "fair".

If only it had been me; I have done everything to deserve to get what she is going through, and I can only pray to God to spare her, and to take me instead - I would give up my life in an instant if I though she would be O.K if I did so. I know that is silly, and that I can't make "deals" with God - but I have asked him, and shall continue to do so. I have pledged my soul and my life to him (which is kind of cheeky, as they are his anyway), but I have voluntarily told him that I want to do whatever I can - however he wants me to do it, in the service of mankind.

I just wish that he would answer me.

As far as marie is concerned, the anger is (I hope) a positive emotion, since she is not just "giving into it" - which would be the last thing that she would need to do to recover. I too am angry, because, like Marie, I don't think it "Fair"; it should have been me.

 

[ayani]

prayers for you and Marie, Michel. for a safe opperation for her, and the skills and compassion of the doctors who will treat her. :flower2: