T-Dawg
Self-appointed Lunatic
Last night I felt like God wanted me to not masturbate. Made sense, since I was sick and the action involved probably would have made things worse.
So a demon or spirit or something in my head decided to take the form of a girl (in my mind, not physically ) I had a crush on in high school (for that girl was indeed the physical avatar of The Evil) and kept trying to tempt me. And boy was that one heck of a fight .
So eventually I told that woman (mentally) to go away and never come back, much like Sméagol did to Gollum in one part of the Lord of The Rings (you have watched/read it, yah?). And the second I drove that demon out of my head, the urge to masturbate took a nose dive. I also kindly told all my other fantasies to leave me alone for the night.
Although I'm still sick and I wasn't able to sleep much that night, I'm free of my masturbation urges.
So yah, it was unholy influence that created the urge to masturbate . I think I can still turn myself back on if I want to, but I haven't tried yet (I don't really care, I can live without a sex drive ).
So a demon or spirit or something in my head decided to take the form of a girl (in my mind, not physically ) I had a crush on in high school (for that girl was indeed the physical avatar of The Evil) and kept trying to tempt me. And boy was that one heck of a fight .
So eventually I told that woman (mentally) to go away and never come back, much like Sméagol did to Gollum in one part of the Lord of The Rings (you have watched/read it, yah?). And the second I drove that demon out of my head, the urge to masturbate took a nose dive. I also kindly told all my other fantasies to leave me alone for the night.
Although I'm still sick and I wasn't able to sleep much that night, I'm free of my masturbation urges.
So yah, it was unholy influence that created the urge to masturbate . I think I can still turn myself back on if I want to, but I haven't tried yet (I don't really care, I can live without a sex drive ).