I think there is an actual God and he is cruel as hell!!!
Is it God who is cruel or is it his adversary?
I believe we need to put the blame at the feet of the right "god". (2 Corinthians 4:3, 4)
We can learn about our situation from the story of Job. Job ch 1, 2) We are all in his situation, having our lives compounded with problem after problem and not seeing who is really responsible for our suffering. Job thought that his troubles were coming from God, but they were coming from an unseen enemy. Despite being deceived about the source of his trials, Job kept his integrity, believing that if God allowed this to befall him, he had to have a good reason.
From Job, we learn that God's adversary is looking for excuses to make us give up on our Creator...as if God made some kind of dreadful mistake in giving us free will. Do we love God because of who he is.....or only because our lives are problem free? God had blessed Job abundantly up until satan made him the target of a test....a very severe test.
God allowed Job to answer the devil's accusations on his own. (Proverbs 27:11) It was a true test of integrity and loyalty.
Satan made the challenge that if humans had all their material blessings taken away, that they would leave God and even curse him. Satan told God to take everything he valued away from Job and see what would happen.......since the Creator knows our limitations better than we do, he allowed satan to test this man of faith, knowing that he would not fold under a severe test. Job held onto his faith, despite losing all his material possessions and even all 10 of his children in one act of spite.
When God held Job up as the shining example of one who could not be broken, satan said the test wasn't severe enough....Job wasn't touched in his own flesh. So satan said that "a man" would do anything to save his own life...even curse God and sell his soul to the devil. Again, Job passed this test with flying colors, but satan hadn't finished with him....in his agony, he provided three "comforters" who suggested that he must have deserved this punishment in some way. Job knew that he had done nothing wrong.....so we can imagine how demoralized he would have been to face such a accusations as the most faithful man alive in the estimations of his God.
Job had to pass this test of his own free will so God never revealed to him the source of his suffering. If we are all in Job's position, but not in ignorance about who is the cause of our trials, are we doing what the devil said we would do?...cursing God for our problems?.....or are we holding onto our faith because we know that we are all being tested in the same way?
What was the end result for Job?
Job 42:12-17:
"So Jehovah blessed the last part of Job’s life more than the beginning, and Job came to have 14,000 sheep, 6,000 camels, 1,000 pairs of cattle, and 1,000 female donkeys. 13 He also came to have seven more sons and three more daughters.....
16 After this Job lived for 140 years, and he saw his children and his grandchildren—four generations. 17 Finally Job died, after a long and satisfying life."
Was it for nothing that Job's trials are recorded in the Bible for our benefit? We too can qualify for a huge reward in the coming "new earth". (2 Peter 3:13)
The apostle Paul wrote....
1 Cor 10:13:
"No temptation has come upon you except what is common to men. But God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear, but along with the temptation he will also make the way out so that you may be able to endure it."
No one knows our level of endurance better than God does. But he has to know us, and we have to know him. Not many are known by God because they choose their own way of believing. Jesus said his 'sheep would hear his voice'....but he also said that the majority of people in these last days are on the wrong road. (Matthew 7:13, 14) We have to seek out the road to life, which is not easy.
Endurance is a quality that will result in the reward God is offering. As Jesus said...
".....the one who has endured to the end will be saved." (Matthew 24:13) How do we build in ourselves the necessary qualities?
The apostle Peter tells us:
"For this very reason, put forth all earnest effort to supply to your faith virtue, to your virtue knowledge, 6 to your knowledge self-control, to your self-control endurance, to your endurance godly devotion, 7 to your godly devotion brotherly affection, to your brotherly affection love. 8 For if these things exist in you and overflow, they will prevent you from being either inactive or unfruitful regarding the accurate knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ."
We have the tools and the knowledge to endure to the end of this world, presently ruled by the devil (1 John 5:19)......all we need to do is find out what God's will is and do it. He doesn't ask for more than we can individually manage. When we give to God our faith and endurance, and support his side of the issue, he will reward us abundantly....just like Job.