Congrats ... but, for happy at this moment. What about other moments?
I have been relatively happier since this past 2 months or so because my sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. She is the cutest baby ever. All the time I talk to her via Skype, I feel like someone has poured cold ice water on the burning coal I call my heart. But unfortunately, just yesterday, my baby niece fell from the bed face first. She suffered some nasty injuries and is hospitalized. Watching her in that condition, even hearing that news, f***ed me up all over again. All the short-term happiness I was feeling is gone, and now replaced with pain and worries.
And this is where I can't understand why people feel happiness after bringing new, innocent lives in this small-scale hell we call "life." I personally don't want children as I don't want them to suffer like me nor do I want them to make others suffer like I caused others to suffer. Why celebrate when you are only feeding more coal to this furnace called "life" to suffer?
