When I kicked Christianity to the curb, I became an agnostic panendeist. That's not a contradiction because I always believed (the imperfective aspect) there is a God, though I cannot prove or know for a fact It exists. I can only "feel" something is there. Yet for some reason I was always drawn to the colorful depictions and stories of Hindu deities (primarily) with other smatterings of polytheism. These all represented my belief that God can and does take any form It wishes. And there was (the imperfective again) the desire to have a less than remote deistic God.
I've had a lot of good things happen, totally unexpected, to resolve things when the chips were down. Do I think there are deities that did this? I don't know. If there are real deities who've provided this help, am I turning my back on them? I don't know, but I hope not. Do I think there is cosmic karma and justice, and rebirth? That's a definite yes. What do I think of prayer, other than to say "thank you" to whomever/whatever is out there? Silliness, because God knows what we need before we ask. These are taken from the Wikipedia article and pretty much sum up my views of prayer:
What do I think of rituals, invocations, chanting, and so on? Well, a passage from the Hua Hu Ching of Lao Tzu sums it up (let Tao = God). In part:
Chanting is no more holy than listening to the murmur of a stream; counting prayer beads no more sacred than simply breathing; religious robes no more spiritual than work clothes. If you wish to attain oneness with the Tao, dont get caught up in spiritual superficialities. Instead, live a quiet and simple life, free of ideas and concepts. Find contentment in the practice of undiscriminating virtue, the only true power. Giving to others selflessly and anonymously, radiating light throughout the world and illuminating your own darkness, your virtue becomes a sanctuary for yourself and all beings. This is what is meant by embodying the Tao.
The Buddha said:
Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.
I feel nothing in temple either. I have an altar, which I've come to view only as a decorative element which reminds me of an otherworldly plane of existence. I don't think it's a special gathering place for deities, though I do light candles and incense and make a series of small bows. But I've come to neglect reciting prayers and slokas (verses). I actually have little shrines all over the house, because I've collected too many statues and murthis, and have colorful pictures of deities on almost every wall.
So where am I; what am I? I'm leaning towards agnostic panendeism again. But what the hell do I do about all my statues and pictures!?
I've had a lot of good things happen, totally unexpected, to resolve things when the chips were down. Do I think there are deities that did this? I don't know. If there are real deities who've provided this help, am I turning my back on them? I don't know, but I hope not. Do I think there is cosmic karma and justice, and rebirth? That's a definite yes. What do I think of prayer, other than to say "thank you" to whomever/whatever is out there? Silliness, because God knows what we need before we ask. These are taken from the Wikipedia article and pretty much sum up my views of prayer:
- ...God has created the universe perfectly, so no amount of supplication, request, or begging can change the fundamental nature of the universe.
- ...Such prayers are often appreciative (that is, "Thank you for ...") rather than supplicative (that is, "Please God grant me ...").
What do I think of rituals, invocations, chanting, and so on? Well, a passage from the Hua Hu Ching of Lao Tzu sums it up (let Tao = God). In part:
Chanting is no more holy than listening to the murmur of a stream; counting prayer beads no more sacred than simply breathing; religious robes no more spiritual than work clothes. If you wish to attain oneness with the Tao, dont get caught up in spiritual superficialities. Instead, live a quiet and simple life, free of ideas and concepts. Find contentment in the practice of undiscriminating virtue, the only true power. Giving to others selflessly and anonymously, radiating light throughout the world and illuminating your own darkness, your virtue becomes a sanctuary for yourself and all beings. This is what is meant by embodying the Tao.
The Buddha said:
Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.
I feel nothing in temple either. I have an altar, which I've come to view only as a decorative element which reminds me of an otherworldly plane of existence. I don't think it's a special gathering place for deities, though I do light candles and incense and make a series of small bows. But I've come to neglect reciting prayers and slokas (verses). I actually have little shrines all over the house, because I've collected too many statues and murthis, and have colorful pictures of deities on almost every wall.
So where am I; what am I? I'm leaning towards agnostic panendeism again. But what the hell do I do about all my statues and pictures!?