Zita
Solitary Eclectic Witch
This has always been a struggle for me,but I never told anyone how I felt because I knew to the "Christians" I would be a horrible person to even ask. Seeings I don't believe in the bible, (I I feel it's a fantasy story book) should I believe the idea and description of God coming from the same source?I'm wondering even more since joining here on religious forum and reading subjects that raise a lot of question is any of this real? I have a problem with the fact God just allows all this devastation in the world just go on and on!! If he is so powerful why not stop it? It hit home for me because in 2015 my mother and I were in a fatal car wreak,A lady ran the red light and crashed in to us!! I knew my mom was hurt bad, it was awful; my mom stayed in the hospital in critical condition and then she died. For 12 days I watched my mom on a ventilator and tubes running everywhere and in horrible pain and organs shutting down,I don't even know if she knew her loved ones was there because she was unresponsive the whole time, my mom really suffered, and she was one of those Christians who believed in the bible and lived according to it, she was a wonderful woman always treated everyone with respect,helped anyone she could,a loving and great mom,understanding!!!!!really lived by thoses 10 commandments she was just a wonderful beautiful light in this world, she worshiped God whole heartily !!! and what thanks or appreciation did she get out of honoring and trusting God all her life ? A horrible ending to her life!! Couldn't he have stopped the wreak, or not allow her to get hurt? He could have done something since everyone says He can do anything, that he blesses us, and yea I know some say it was her time, OK then why not let her die peacefully in her sleep, or in a way that she didn't suffer? I am confused here!!! and I am sure there are thousands of other people with stories similar like mine!!! Look at the channel on Investigation discovery it's full of non- deserving people dying everyday by the hands of people who have no regard for human life or/and God either!! and most live on, yea maybe in jail but they live!! WHY?Does it seem right? Nope not at all.What about all these deformed children that are being born some never even knowing they exist!! or being born blind, deaf etc. or allowing someone to lose their sight or hearing or ability to walk, I could go on and on, if he is such a powerful.loving God then why? please tell me why so much misery in this world?. I'm not even saying there isn't a God , I'm saying maybe he's just not what they proclaim he is!!! I have always believe in the God that was taught to me but felt it was more to existence then what I knew about because of religious beliefs I feel I am justified in believing that there is a higher power out here! "God"maybe what most call it, but I live each day working in the spirit of knowing what is right and wrong to live in love and peace and for the good of other people,to strive to be a beautiful person in this world and continue to grow and to be in-tune with my higher power , my higher self ,to only live in love in this Universe and enjoy all the blessings it can offer me to be happy,loved,successful,appreciated and to help those I can physically,mentally and spiritually!!Not
because I have to because The all mighty God and his son Jesus, say I should do,or I may die and go to hell! but because I want to spread all the goodness I experience myself,and when this earthly body dies,this soul is coming back to continue to learn even more and do even bigger and better things then before.Yea, I know a lot don't believe in reincarnation!! but once again, I am confused; if you can believe all the stuff you do, dealing with the bible!! then why not believe that it maybe it is possible?Oh that's right, I forgot," Cause God" says it is Heaven or Hell for you after you die and you know what? That is your right !!to believe as you want .At the end of the day that's all that really matters.
because I have to because The all mighty God and his son Jesus, say I should do,or I may die and go to hell! but because I want to spread all the goodness I experience myself,and when this earthly body dies,this soul is coming back to continue to learn even more and do even bigger and better things then before.Yea, I know a lot don't believe in reincarnation!! but once again, I am confused; if you can believe all the stuff you do, dealing with the bible!! then why not believe that it maybe it is possible?Oh that's right, I forgot," Cause God" says it is Heaven or Hell for you after you die and you know what? That is your right !!to believe as you want .At the end of the day that's all that really matters.