Do you mean the plain meaning of the scriptures, like when Jesus says He will be no more in the world? That is not my take, it is simply what Jesus said, if you believe that the New Testament is what Jesus said. If you believe these verses are in error that calls the entire New Testament into question, so we cannot believe anything it says.
My personal feelings I have about God at times have nothing to do with what is actually in the scripture. You cannot change the fact that Jesus said He would would will no longer be in the world. Jesus also said that His work was finished in the world so there is
no reason why Jesus would be returning to the world, unless He was coming to lounge around.
John 17:4 I have glorified thee on the earth: I have finished the work which thou gavest me to do.
John 19:30 When Jesus therefore had received the vinegar, he said, It is finished: and he bowed his head, and gave up the ghost.
Jesus certainly never said He was coming back to earth to build the Kingdom of God, so I don't know where Christians ever got this idea.
John 18:36 Jesus answered, My kingdom is not of this world: if my kingdom were of this world, then would my servants fight, that I should not be delivered to the Jews: but now is my kingdom not from hence.
John 18:37 Pilate therefore said unto him, Art thou a king then? Jesus answered, Thou sayest that I am a king. To this end was I born, and for this cause came I into the world, that I should bear witness unto the truth. Every one that is of the truth heareth my voice.
These two verses in John 18 completely negate that Jesus is the King of this world or that Jesus will ever come to this world to rule it, and they fit perfectly together with John 17:4 and John 17:11. Jesus came into this world to bear witness unto the truth about God. He did that so there is no more reason for Jesus to come back to this world again. That is why Jesus said “
I am no more in the world.”
BTW, I do not
think God is horrible. Although I
feel that way at times, I know it is me who is horrible for feeling that way, and that's is why I work on changing my attitude towards God, because I know I am wrong. I talk about how I feel on the forum because often there are people whom can help me sort out my feelings, and often those people are Christians because they have their head on straight when it comes to God.