I consider that no government does a good job , all religion is quite false and we are all selfish when it comes to survival . We quite clearly don't really care about the needy etc and are all quite horrible people .
I don't think we deserve to live and call ourselves the superior species .
I think the morality of your thoughts is completely irrelevant. I'm far, far, far more concerned with the mental and spiritual health of it all. You are clearly hurting. You may have been hurting for a long, long time to have reached this state, that you no longer are able to see the love and joy and hope in the world.
Yes, there is insanity and evil around us, but it has it's flip side as well. It's precisely BECAUSE of the ugliness that we must appreciate every little act of kindness, every stroke of beauty, every word of truth, every moment of goodness. Live in the moment. If you hang on to the past, you will be depressed. If you obsess about the future, you will be anxious. And become part of the solution -- be kind, good, true, and beautiful in this world whenever you can.
There is always room for improvement, but you'd be surprised how many caring individuals there are. I work as an Alcohol and Drug Counselor, and I'm always giving out resource lists for food and housing. Religious organizations are the most charitable of all. You'd be surprised just how many small little churches organize big food dispensaries. I'm not saying it's easy being poor -- it's a grind. I'm just saying that people DO care, and it DOES make a difference.