Then you are not an atheist. An atheist is a religious zealot that can not do other than create conflict.
In case you don't know, a spectrum called "The Dawkins Scale" has been created that assesses degrees of atheism. The scale ranges from 1 = strong theist, to 7 = strong atheist. A 6 on this scale is an atheist who allows an ever so slight chance of a deity.
I suspect that you're making the assumption that all atheists are 7's on the scale, and in my experience very few atheists are 7's, most are 6's. I am a 6.