gnostic
The Lost One
Or the innocence provide no "realisation", whether it be self or otherwise.That is the wisdom behind non-duality...concepts are only representations of reality...they are not real...except of course as symbolic mental constructs...the real is forever on the other side.. For that reason Jesus taught..."unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." That is what meditation practice to still the mind is all about....realize reality directly non-conceptually.with the same innocence we once exhibited as children...but with one difference...now with self realization.....
When I was younger, when I first read the bible, I actually wanted to believe that there was a heaven and a god. And I wanted the afterlife that the gospel promised.
But the older I got, I came to the realisation that this afterlife and heaven is nothing more than carrot, always out of reach, giving others false hope.
Resurrection and a place in heaven lost the shine to me, and the more read the bible, the more I knew that I didn't want to live forever because it would be a meaningless life...or afterlife.
And if God is anything like the God of JOB (book), then I don't think could follow such a petty god, who sounds more like a human tyrant, let alone forever in his presence.
Does that mean you I want to go to hell?
No. I want no part of heaven or hell; I want no part of eternal reward or punishment. To me, one lifetime is enough for me. I'd prefer to not exist at all, after I die...no spirit, no soul.