Is your life a gift?

[Spiderman]

Do you see life as a gift?

IMO, Sometimes, yes...when sobriety, abiding by the law, and faith is present, there can be great joy and peace.

When either of those three factors are lost, it becomes unbearable.

The happiest moments though, I question and treat with suspicion lately, wondering if it was caused by delusion?

 

[Spiderman]

I treat the joy with suspicion now. For instance, last time in jail, it really seemed there was the presence of God and some heavenly beings (spirits) inspiring thoughts, dreams, coincidence, and protection...it was one of the greatest feelings ever...seemed like an inner revolution (awakening) in many ways... and it was not good circumstances or company to be around. Yet I was happy, peaceful, hopeful...

But, I look back on it, and think "if I was of sound mind, i'd have gotten out of jail and really accomplished so much more...not gone back to drugs, crime, and jumping off a building."

So, ive got a new wave of skepticism lately. Of course, an atheist would see the skepticism as healthy.

Perhaps it is.

But, not as fun and enjoyable as having that faith and hope.

 

[robocop (actually)]

Well, to be honest I think I have a great life but in all honesty some people do not seem to.

 

[osgart]

Its a necessary growing pain. To learn the divine nature. Something i believe in without reason. I do hope there is a God, but i dont buy into it. Its more of a spirit than a being.

Life is beautiful, its meant to be, even if people dont subscribe. I think divine nature would be something we all must evolve into.

 

[sun rise]

Do you see life as a gift?

My answer is yes. Not in the sense of a birthday gift of a goodie, but in the sense of an opportunity to learn and grow.

 

[Phantasman]

Do you see life as a gift?

IMO, Sometimes, yes...when sobriety, abiding by the law, and faith is present, there can be great joy and peace.

When either of those three factors are lost, it becomes unbearable.

The happiest moments though, I question and treat with suspicion lately, wondering if it was caused by delusion?

"I felt bad having no shoe's, until I saw a man with no feet"

Life is what you make it, my friend. See the good in it. There are people worse off than you.

 

[robocop (actually)]

I think I would struggle with suicide if I was blind. Whenever I meet a blind person and ask them how they do it, they always say "because I have to."

 

[Phantasman]

I feel fine. Already "saved", catch my drift

Aight

Just curious. What are you saved from?

 

[Spiderman]

Just curious. What are you saved from?

The wrath of God!
Even though that sounds ridiculous to me that God has to save us from himself, im supposed to believe that, so try to.

 

[Sunstone]

I have a good life that I often feel gratitude for, so in that sense, life is gift to me.

 

[Trailblazer]

Do you see life as a gift?

IMO, Sometimes, yes...when sobriety, abiding by the law, and faith is present, there can be great joy and peace.

When either of those three factors are lost, it becomes unbearable.

The happiest moments though, I question and treat with suspicion lately, wondering if it was caused by delusion?

My life is.... complicated right now.... and there is no end in sight so I have given up hope for the future.
I do not think this is how I perceive it, I think it is how it is.

We have three houses... Two are rentals with tenants, and one of the rentals needs a lot of work. The other one has a tenant who owes me over $5000 in back rent. I think he will pay it eventually, but I cannot know if or when... Other tenants who moved out from the house that needs work six months ago before it needed the work owe us $6750, and I will probably have to take that to court to get a settlement...

Meanwhile, the house we live in has been neglected for years, especially the yard, which is no longer a yard but rather a wildlife refuge full of so many trees I can barely see outside the window.... They just keep growing taller and taller, and more and more of them keep springing up. What was once a lake view house is now a tree view house...

To add to that, we have 11 Persian cats and they need constant attention... One is old and has severe kidney disease he needs special care and the others all need grooming...

I am now old enough to retire and we have so much money and financial assets that I could retire tomorrow, but where am I going to go, with all this going on??? So I just keep working.

Okay, my coworkers say most people would be glad to be in my situation, meaning my financial situation and ability to retire. But would they want all the rest of my life? I doubt it.

I am not complaining, I am just explaining.

On the upside, aside from never having to worry about money ever again, I have good health, a nice husband and a religion I believe with absolute certitude.

So one might ask, why can't I just use some of the money to hire someone to fix the rental house and do the yard work at my house? I am working on those repairs but I move ever so slowly... I had to get nine bids on the roof job before I was willing to hire, and I now have them so I have to decide who to hire... That is progress but I still have a long way to go because there is interior work that needs doing after that.

Give me a match and most of my problems would be gone since most of my problems are related to having three houses... I was much happier when we had only one house, but I was also poorer and colder, because it only had a wood stove for heat.

I always wonder, what is it that makes people so content? Maybe that is just the default position for those who were not born with my genetic predisposition to depression and anxiety, and no, there is no cure with drugs.... been there, done that.

 

[Spiderman]

My life is.... complicated right now.... and there is no end in sight so I have given up hope for the future.
I do not think this is how I perceive it, I think it is how it is.

We have three houses... Two are rentals with tenants, and one of the rentals needs a lot of work. The other one has a tenant who owes me over $5000 in back rent. I think he will pay it eventually, but I cannot know if or when... Other tenants who moved out from the house that needs work six months ago before it needed the work owe us $6750, and I will probably have to take that to court to get a settlement...

Meanwhile, the house we live in has been neglected for years, especially the yard, which is no longer a yard but rather a wildlife refuge full of so many trees I can barely see outside the window.... They just keep growing taller and taller, and more and more of them keep springing up. What was once a lake view house is now a tree view house...

To add to that, we have 11 Persian cats and they need constant attention... One is old and has severe kidney disease he needs special care and the others all need grooming...

I am now old enough to retire and we have so much money and financial assets that I could retire tomorrow, but where am I going to go, with all this going on??? So I just keep working.

Okay, my coworkers say most people would be glad to be in my situation, meaning my financial situation and ability to retire. But would they want all the rest of my life? I doubt it.

I am not complaining, I am just explaining.

On the upside, aside from never having to worry about money ever again, I have good health, a nice husband and a religion I believe with absolute certitude.

So one might ask, why can't I just use some of the money to hire someone to fix the rental house and do the yard work at my house? I am working on those repairs but I move ever so slowly... I had to get nine bids on the roof job before I was willing to hire, and I now have them so I have to decide who to hire... That is progress but I still have a long way to go because there is interior work that needs doing after that.

Give me a match and most of my problems would be gone since most of my problems are related to having three houses... I was much happier when we had only one house, but I was also poorer and colder, because it only had a wood stove for heat.

I always wonder, what is it that makes people so content? Maybe that is just the default position for those who were not born with my genetic predisposition to depression and anxiety, and no, there is no cure with drugs.... been there, done that.

Yes, I agree, drugs don't help depression and anxiety in my experience...

The ones that did were addictive, you get a tolerance, stop working, and had abuse potential, so, not a good solution.

Your life sounds EXTREMELY complicated! No way could i meet all those responsibilities...

Its hard for me finding enough insects for my spideys!

Im sure more people would want your life than mine cuz I'm in the ghetto, little money, on probation, and physically injured bad (permanently).

You have multiple houses and assets, so many people would prefer that, but sheesh, i could not handle all the complicated responsibilities!

 

[Trailblazer]

Yes, I agree, drugs don't help depression and anxiety in my experience...

The ones that did were addictive, you get a tolerance, stop working, and had abuse potential, so, not a good solution.

Your life sounds EXTREMELY complicated! No way could i meet all those responsibilities...

Its hard for me finding enough insects for my spideys!

Im sure more people would want your life than mine cuz I'm in the ghetto, little money, on probation, and physically injured bad (permanently).

You have multiple houses and assets, so many people would prefer that, but sheesh, i could not handle all the complicated responsibilities!

Yeah, I went the antidepressant drug route for five years back in the 1980s... I nearly died, so never again. I am a lot better now because I spent years in counseling and 12 step programs and I had homeopathic treatment... I am not really depressed, just overwhelmed with too many responsibilities and we have no children or family or friends to help us out.... but we have money so I should not complain.

You have a pure heart and faith in God and that is not something that money can buy...
I can understand that the rest is not easy though... I am always here if you need someone to talk to... I am glued to this laptop whenever I am not at work or in transit, or when I am not eating or sleeping.

 

[Cary Cook]

If my life is a gift, it's a gift to someone else.

 

[Hockeycowboy]

Do you see life as a gift?

IMO, Sometimes, yes...when sobriety, abiding by the law, and faith is present, there can be great joy and peace.

When either of those three factors are lost, it becomes unbearable.

The happiest moments though, I question and treat with suspicion lately, wondering if it was caused by delusion?

Some people have too much anguish, through no fault of their own.

I doubt people starving in Sudan, or anywhere, view it as a gift. More later. Take care, my friend!

Goodnight.