I hope God loves unconventional believers like you Frank, as much as I do.
. People like you, defending the God of Abraham, despite what he has done to victimize and condemn , you defend him like he loves lepers as much as saint Francis of Assisi.
You are bigger than any God or christian who condemns , judges those who have afflictions, vices, "disorders" from abuse, neglect, or powerlessness over sin, that they pray to God in vain for healing, for enlightenment to end their confusion.
If God is more loving than saint Francis of Assisi, or any good mother or martyr I meet, I love him.
I love God in those who are in agony. That is where I see Jesus. Frankenstein is , the monster God condemned to be despicable, rejected, tortured with confusion, fallen nature they cannot control. That is Jesus, I pray God sets poor Jesus free.
Lucifer means morning star, lightbearer, scripture says Jesus is called " morning star, light of the world", Lucifer. I hope you get well Jesus. I love you!