meditation?

[Tmac]

Indeed, there are different forms of meditation. Several years ago, I did a two year study involving meditation to gain insight into the nature of PMS. (Couldn't find a teacher for that, so I just had to figure it out for myself.) It was difficult meditating while in the throes of PMS, but I eventually learned to discern the difference between a hormonal effect from the body and a frustration effect from the mind triggered by the hormones.

I also designed my own mantra to overcome my aversion to mantras. (I used the Proto-Indo-European root "Blegch" which means "to burn, to shine.") It worked in getting over my aversion to mantras, but was kinda painful, even with the humor I built into it. (Getting over aversion can be painful.)

If I may, I'd like to applaud your effort described by your first paragraph. I remember hearing when the student is ready the teacher will appear.

 

[Dantedeven]

Meditation is the habit of getting rid of the thoughts you don't need that keep reoccuring. And keeping the thoughts that you do need from dissapearing. And it is this simple: Sit down, legs crossed. Breathe in, Breathe Out. Every you time you breathe out you think: One. Continue till ten and repeat. Any other thought than: 1 to 10 is irrelevant and when those occur you start at 1 again. Now you might want to ´sneak in´ silent thoughts. NO. You do that you start at one again.

It is just that: Creating emptiness when you need it and learning to create that emptiness at anytime at any place whenever you want. Within that emptiness that you learned to always create you have the mental space to remember mindfulness. Now if you can remember mindfulness without having to remember to remember mindfulness, you are always mindful. If you are always mindful, you are never distracted from the object of mindfulness. Therefor negative thoughts are banished.