Maybe originally it was something like that. After finding out the prophesies were 100% true, and that Jesus was still alive and well, it was more like I had to believe it whether I liked it or not.
Prove it.
Go with any belief you like. Fine. Remember the basis for models of the past is not science but only an unproven unsupportable belief.
Do you not see the hilarious contradiction in what you just said?
"I believe the Bible because the prophecies are 100% true, Jesus is alive and I HAD to believe it."
"The basis for models of the past is only an unproven, unsupportable belief."
So, if the second sentence is true, answer these questions:
1) How do you know any prophecies were fulfilled (or even made)?
2) How do you know Jesus ever existed?
3) Why do you HAVE to believe anything the Bible asserts about the past?