I don't have the proper words right now, I am so emotionall right now. just about 12 days ago Mona had trouble keeping her eyes open, and then she seemed to bounce back and then suddenly she spiraled out of control. And he gums got pale, and she became aenemic, and lethargic and wouldn't eat, and we took to the hospital, but she died over night, I wish I was there with her, when she passed away. It so fast. She was there in my arms just yesterday, and now shes gone...
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I hesitated to click on this because I knew I would start crying, and of course I did...
My heart is right there with you, I fully understand how you feel, there are no words...
There is
nothing I love more than my cats, nothing, not even God or my husband, but they both know that.
We have lost so many cats, I cannot even give you the number, but it is well over 20 in the last 20 years, so you can do the math. I never seem to have a chance to recover before we lose another one, the last was in July of this year. He had kidney disease and heart disease and ultimately had a heart attack. That happened at home while I was at work and my husband witnessed it, but he used to be a nurse so he handles these things better than I do... The cat we lost previous to him was in March 2017. She also had heart disease and died suddenly in the vet clinic while getting a chest x-ray. I was at work then too. Most of the other cats died of kidney disease, mostly at home, all except one, because we care for them at home as long as we can. One cat we had had a tumor and one had a brain dysfunction ... We spent close to !0,000 on surgeries for those two cats but we lost both of them right when they came out of surgery. It was the MOST devastating thing that ever happened to me in my life. I lost my father and my mother and my sister but I was nowhere near as devastated from those deaths.
I came close to suicide when we lost one of the cats right out of surgery and I have PTSD from the shock. I already had latent PTSD from my father's sudden death from a heart attack when I was 12 years old so I will always have it.
I am sure you did everything you could do. Sometimes it is better when they go fast because they do not suffer. It is easier for them but it is harder for us because we love them so.
Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help. You can post me a private message if you want to.
