I see your problem, the God you seek is not separate from you, It is your source which means that you are the expression of. The potential is there to be a more perfect expression of, or a less, but being an atheist does not mean you are still not an expression of God. Denying that there is a higher source of you, that you are just a 'stand alone' mortal ego self identified with the body does not make it true. And I grant you just believing there is a higher source also does not make it true, but realizing it through some efficacious spiritual practice does.
Concerning "Nobody appears to beat home", it is true the path is difficult and long, it may take years of daily meditation to get to the next step. That step when it comes will remove all doubts, but the path still will be difficult. Religious practice of which I speak is not about gaining something, it is about learning and realizing the full potential of what and who you really are.