You're quite welcome Taahir, it is my pleasure to try and share what meager understanding I have it is my sincere hope you find some worth in my words.
On of my favorite surahs is Ar-Rahman and this is one of my favorite recitations
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Surah Rahman - Mishary Rashid Al Afasy
Another thing, please don't feel overwhelmed. I have provided you with links and books in case certain things appeal more to you than others and you wish to read them first. Don't feel like it is your duty to read it all now. Islam is a religion of moderation it did not demand from the companions to abstain from alcohol immediately but step by step until the evils of alcohol were apparent and the beauty of Islam and its lifestyle was apparent.
Thank you for understanding brother. I think I really need to get in touch with my spiritual side again somehow. I'm going to try to find a spiritual shaykh around me Insha'Allah.