For most of my adult life I have been an atheist. I was raised in Northern Minnesota and went to a Lutheran Church. Socially it was ok but it did not speak to me in my heart/mind....
At 36 years old I was being left by my husband. He was really rude (and more) to me. My heart was breaking.... He left me in our home office, where we had a long "discussion." I was devastated and felt bad, awful, scared, lost, hurt.... I cried and cried. After a time, on my right side I was stunned by a brightness and a calming aura that entered me. It was powerful and stunned me. I was scared, shocked and, well, bewildered. I am certain that it was God. He said to me, in a calm voice: "You are Good." I became calm. Stopped crying and felt loved and cared for. The "entering" into my body was intense but calming. It lasted for, what, 3 minutes or 30 minutes. Who knows. I am now 60 years old and, well, this "visit" has popped around in my heart and brain for dang near 25 years. I was an atheist at 36 and yet God came to me. I put this "visit" aside, but hardly forgotten, for a number of years. I went to graduate school, got married again, and lived my leftist, professional life. But, when I was in pain and worried, I believe, God came to me because I felt an arm around my shoulders giving me support and comfort. This has happened about 4 times since the initial calming/visit/support.
I don't go to a church, I don't want to. But I do feel I know God. This has been in my heart/mind increasingly. I say to friends who get my story that I don't believe in God. I know God. It is from specific experience.
I do not like church services and I am tired of prayers that go on and on at some services. I do speak to God at times and ask him to listen. I am not
afraid of dying. God spoke to me. A friend said to me, "You don't believe in God. You know God. And I do too!" She gets it.
Have any of you had an experience like mine?
At 36 years old I was being left by my husband. He was really rude (and more) to me. My heart was breaking.... He left me in our home office, where we had a long "discussion." I was devastated and felt bad, awful, scared, lost, hurt.... I cried and cried. After a time, on my right side I was stunned by a brightness and a calming aura that entered me. It was powerful and stunned me. I was scared, shocked and, well, bewildered. I am certain that it was God. He said to me, in a calm voice: "You are Good." I became calm. Stopped crying and felt loved and cared for. The "entering" into my body was intense but calming. It lasted for, what, 3 minutes or 30 minutes. Who knows. I am now 60 years old and, well, this "visit" has popped around in my heart and brain for dang near 25 years. I was an atheist at 36 and yet God came to me. I put this "visit" aside, but hardly forgotten, for a number of years. I went to graduate school, got married again, and lived my leftist, professional life. But, when I was in pain and worried, I believe, God came to me because I felt an arm around my shoulders giving me support and comfort. This has happened about 4 times since the initial calming/visit/support.
I don't go to a church, I don't want to. But I do feel I know God. This has been in my heart/mind increasingly. I say to friends who get my story that I don't believe in God. I know God. It is from specific experience.
I do not like church services and I am tired of prayers that go on and on at some services. I do speak to God at times and ask him to listen. I am not
afraid of dying. God spoke to me. A friend said to me, "You don't believe in God. You know God. And I do too!" She gets it.
Have any of you had an experience like mine?