Marajade
New Member
Hi I'm new here.. Was raised Christian but I'm not sure if I'm Christian or maybe wiccan ..i believe in way by up holding Christian manners like don't steel ,forgive , don't cuss well I try my best on last one these just example what I mean. But when I comes to other people talking about god an Jesus how it is all sinners or non believers will go to hell am halaluya thank you Jesus your in control.. Makes me uncomfortable like its pushed on me an got to except it. I have gifts that I'm not sure is Christian, grand parents say it's the devil talking but I am empathic I can feel others emotion I can tell when my husband is going to call or what he's eating out no wer i taste a food I txt him an he was eating that food I'm 40miles away driving ride share yet I know.i also have dreams visions of future if I concentrate hard enough on something I really want I c it in a dream of wer to find an it's there. My family is creeped out by me. An my gifts r growing ..i probly sound crazy but they have seen it first hand I try to hide that side of me but it comes out. .is this the devil talking am I Christian or am i Wicca? I've Ben like this since childhood im researching to find my place Im not evil I'm a good mellow person who helps people an animals whenever I can an love my husband with my hole heart. I always believed there are higher powers "gods" but I believe more in mother earth I can since energy on the breeze the grass trees I'm most peaceful an happy when I'm in nature.im not sure if I believe in spells but do the energy of life an spirits. I tried tranfering my calm energy to a hyper dog he calmed down quick an yawned. .I did try heeling with crystal put my positive energy an the want to feel better an I did I just want understand this side of me more an control it I'm happy when I don't turn it off only way for me not to since is if I stay tired anxious scared. Am I betraying god by having the talents of are they from him? My husband is worried about me looking into other religions he thinks I'm leaving him I'm not an never will.he has seen my weird side to he is use to it in a way if it happens it happens don't take it further. Hhh I don't no hopefully on this site I can figure out where I belong.sorry for long story an mispelled words I did best I can. I'm a shy person took me awhile to come out with this. I'm afraid of others hating me because I don't believe it feel the same way as them.. .It's a free country believe worship live the way you want is how I see things don't matter to me if someone is Christian catholic Buddhist Wicca wich ever we all same seeking happiness a meaning to life.