Forgemaster
Heretic
Actually, it's not that complicated. Rather than depend on any preacher or minister to preach or share the right thing read the scriptures yourself asking God to reveal the truth concerning Jesus or anything else of spiritual importance. If you are sincere and God wants you to be saved, which I believe He does, then He certainly will be faithful to respond and give your reason for to know and believe.
It actually is that complicated. Your own statement proves that. You can be sincere all you want but if your God doesn't like you then your done for. So it really has nothing to do with anyone, god has favorites and isn't as loving as he claims to be.